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This will be a short update...

So Soubi is officially a bastard. We are no longer friends, because he decided I couldn't accept his 'change' which I have no idea what it was. Because the only change I saw was him being more of an intolerant douche. I really don't think he remembers the shit he put me through at the beginning of our friendship. And then the shit he put me through a month or so ago when he decided to never reply or try to talk to me. So I'm pretty sure my pile of intolerable things I did wasn't even half of the shit he made me go through.

I won;t lie I was strongly considering breaking up the friendship when I saw that all he was interested in was nothing and we basically had no friendship, he only told me about how I should have talked to him first and that it was my fault and stupid things that I didn't need to hear. He bitched that I didn't contribute, but our ENTIRE friendship he almost NEVER contributed to our conversations. So I assumed he could live with it for a few months. But what ever. I'm completely at peace with this. It just angers me at the way he did it and for the reasons he did it, and HE'S the one who looks at me ugly and ignored me first. I was going to ignore him also, and the ugly face I give him when I think, see, or hear him is involuntary. You would be angry too.

I am lonlier, and I lost a good person to talk to, but it's only about a year and a couple of months until I graduate. I'll survive, I survived all of my first two year of high school with out someone like Soubi, I can survive another year. College will be my new start. And I can't wait, maybe I'll actually be happy.

I PASSED PHYSICS! I was so happy. At UIL yesterday, I got two 1's, one on my solo, the other on my ensemble. I was so pissed at my ensemble though, but that's in the past. On the bright side, I get my license next week! Yay!!!

Hm... that's about all I have to say in this blog.

Adios!

Past the Point of No Return

Wow, I'm a reckless soul.

Soubi and I made up this week. It's different between us. It was like a month we didn't talk, so I sould expect much more, I'm just hoping we go back to normal, but I'm used to not talking to anyone and getting through things by myself. I went through Friend's thing alone and I'm choosing to not tell him about Donk's thing.

Just to throw it out there, I really HATE it when people ask me if I'm okay or what's wrong. No one cared when I was actually having problems and now is nothing compared to back then, so just don't ask me if "I'm okay" I'll live, okay, I got through it alone back then, I can do it now.

So Soubi was like, what's wrong, yesterday after I was short with him because I was honestly not in the mood it had been a long week and I wasn't used to talking to people that I cared for, and I was talking to someone planning other things. I told him I was just stressed, which I was the 15ish hours I slept that day proved it. He didn't drop it, we argued and then I knocked out.

I know I know, we are always fighting but I can't help it, we are both stubborn and want something different from the other.

So on a brighter note... ... hold on I'm trying to think of one... ... Oh! I can identify intervals better! ... ... ... ... That's about it... ... ... Wow, that sucks lol. I'm sure better news shall come but my week was, stressing about grades, stressing about homework, stressing about registering for classes, stressing over my overall everyday schedule, stressing about classes, stressing about my future, and stressing about my council meeting (which I am so sure I did badly in). So I had a REALLY long week, with a REALLY sucky ending. But I think me and Soubi are cool right now. That all I really care to write, I must sound so horrible and like a bitch, lol. Oh well, everyone has their own opinion.

Yuki has no idea who she is!

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Ah!!!! Threesome between Vanessa Dan and What ever hilary duff's character's name is. EW!!!! Worst pairing EVER! The Dan part killed everything! I mean, I really hate Dan, even when he was with Serina (who is really pissing me off now). So yeah. I could so not watch it at all. It was like ICKY! I peeked once to see if it was to the next scene it was Dan going towards Vanessa, I almost gagged. It was shocking. So yeah. Talking about odd pairings that would be going-

OMG NEXT EPISODE WILL BE AWKWARD AND VENEGEFUL AS HELL!!! HELL YEAH!!!

Buty yeah as I was saying, during lunch we were talking about weird couples and fav couples in Harry Potter Fanfics (because there are so many characters in that book) I love my friends on days like this. None of my friends have commented on how Gil is back and we are talking again. I love that guy. Oh crap, I never told you guys! Yeah, me and Gil FINALLY made up, long story short he texted me and we made up, then we argued, and I fell asleep. Deja Vu? But yeah, I think things will improve in our friendship now. I didn't text him today, he got out of practice at 7 p.m. so I'm sure he's tired, no need to bother him for the time being.

I am almost done downloading Sims 2! LEGALLY! Three hours left! man! I swear it's been downloading since the weekend, it's 4.3GB and yes, for you nerd like me, it is more than WOW