Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Pisses me off.

this deserves a comeback.

everydaygay:

“Lesbians like straight girls. Lesbians like straight girls because lesbians think that everyone is a little bit gay and that, with the right amount of coaxing, straight girls can be convinced that they are not so straight. Lesbians think: ‘She just hasn’t met the right woman. I am that woman.’”

Lesbians who think this are really just dissatisfied with the rest of the lesbian population. Women with this mindset are just out for the chase when there is a minute chance of a legitimate relationship with this woman.  Not only will “these” lesbians get their heart broken repeatedly and spend many days moping in the dark and making videos about how depressed they are, but they give the rest of us lesbians a bad name in society. Not only do we have to deal with all the negative connotations of being gay but now we have “these” idiots that make everyone nervous that we are going to steal their girlfriends. I can not even hang out with my best friend without her boyfriend being worried about what we are doing. 

So thank you, dumb asses, for going along with the thought that we are all out to convert the straight population.  

Sincerely,

The committed lesbians”

^This. This is why I hate being bisexual. Just exactly this.

I hate, I absolutely HATE telling people I’m bisexual, not because I’m ashamed but I know all the shit they are going to think about me the moment I tell them.

I’ll admit I think these things too about bisexuals. That they are players and cheaters, but I catch myself and decide to give them a chance.

You think coming out of the closet is hard? Try doing it when you’re bi or pan.

Not only will you get shit from the straight people but you also get so much shit from the gay community. There is really no where for safe haven. Not only do you get the ‘being gay is a choice’ shit you get the, you can’t like women and men, that’s even more stupid than the gay thing, and you get the you either like men or women, or the you’re just lying to yourself you like women but you don’t want to let go of men, or it’s just a phase, from the GAY community.

You know how RIDICULOUS that is? Would you like to feel me? Look at my eyes dilate! Look at my leg twitch! Fucking just touch my wetness! I get turned on by men and women. And it’s getting on my FUCKING NERVES!

I mean what the fuck. You know, I actually started believing that I was just a closeted lesbian and I was just repressing these feelings. So I just completely let go of my brain’s restraints. And nope. I let go completely and guess what, still attracted to guys not just girls.

You know what’s worse about trying to come out to people you know? Or a lesbian? Or anyone? I haven’t done anything with a girl. At all.

Apparently the argument that gays make over the question, “How did you decide you were gay if you’ve never done anything with the opposite sex?” How do you know your heterosexual when you haven’t done anything with the same sex?

I guess that doesn’t fucking work with bi’s huh?

It’s so fucking frustrating!

Like, you can wait for the right guy until you fuck, but I can’t wait for the right girl to kiss and love? Fuck man!

Damn hypocritical society.

Is it that wrong to wait for the right girl? Do you just want me to fucking jump the next girl who passes me? Seriously? Do you want me to do things with someone I don’t even like? I did enough of that on the guy spectrum of things and I didn’t particularly like it.

Excuse me for trying to not fuck something up for the first time in my life.

I fucked every possible thing up I could have with a guy. Every fucking thing. If you think about it, I fucked it up. Completely and utterly.

This is why I haven’t told anyone. If they ask me I’ll tell them, as much as I’d prefer not to. I’d think the people I know would be much more accepting, but the one super out lesbian I know doesn’t believe in bisexuality, I mean what the fuck. She also finds mexican lesbians weird, but whatever, I can live with that.

I mean she;s going through her own thing. Her girlfriend is an FTM (which means she’s transitioning from female to male) and she is in a I think I love her, but what would that mean for us? thing. You’d think she’d be more accepting.

I hate people, I swear.

Is it that hard to comprehend? That it’s possible to like men and women? Is it that hard to think that sexuality is fluid? There should even be a name for it. I love people.

Fuck this man.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Flash back!

Ah! I just remembered something I dreamt last night! It was a random flashback of a dream. That’s never happened before but it’s okay!

I don’t know what I was dreaming what was happening or who the hell this person was. A little bit of background as to why my dream looked like this. I have been watching Tobuscus’s Dead Space 2 gameplay and yeah, it’s been about 50 episodes now all about 10 minutes. you do the math. And if you’ve never played DS 2 or 1 and have no idea what it looks like. It’s a very metally and plasticy blue, yellow, and orange hallway thing. Very narrow hallways.

So I was in one of those hallways, minus the crazy demons trying to kill me ever, and I was with someone else, with good lighting, and I was with this girl who was on the floor against some boxes and I knew her. She was looking down, and I was talking to her comforting her telling her something, I think she didn’t believe in herself or something. She had like…. kristen stewart type hair, but it was straight, but with her styling. it was the parted on the side shaggy straight with side swept bangs, brown. She was tannish and kind looked like Ellie (from dead space 2) before her eye was missing. But she had that tannish skin.

So here I am comforting her. And I’m like processing that I need to make her see that she’s awesome and worth it(dunno what was wrong) so I go over to her and she’s tall enough to the point where I don’t need to squat to touch her face (while she was sitting on the floor), and I sweep the hair out of her face while slightly touching her cheek, and I lean down so I can look at her closely and in this process I just decide to get down to her level so I kneel (all in one fatal swoop) and I cup her cheek and then as she continued to look down I lifted her chin and sweep her annoying bangs back out of her face and I get closer to her face and I tell her a bunch of awesome stuff, and she laughs when I move away, and I give her that look like I’m about to ask what’s so funny, and she said she thought I was going to kiss her, and I laughed. And I thought, nice to know! Because she didn’t move at all away from me in the entire process she just looked a little shocked when she looked into my sincere eyes XD

I’m awesome in my dreams, just saying XD