Saturday, June 19, 2010

All About Us

Okay, so I was going to post yesterday, BUT, I had to finish GTA San Andreas, the missions were finally getting fun and not to be a chore. But I did think about what I was going to write, before I became obsessed. I did finish the main plot! But I still have like 27 percent to go before I get it 100% done. I have become aggravated, I dedicated my time to chasing down the cars I have to export, I am on my last chalkboard! But it still takes FOREVER! So I've moved on to work on the internet.

WORLD CUP!!! Yeah! I am totally into it! I go for Inglaterra (England) and Mexico (of course) and Alemania (Germany), They are my top 3, Mexico is going to lose this next round against Uruguay. Germany let me down yesterday! England let me down completely yesterday, but at least they tied or won I can't remember. U.S.A, that was an okay game, they shocked me. I really don't remember a lot about the games, considering I only watched them at school when I was supposed to be caring about other things.

I had my research class yesterday, 7a.m. - 12p.m. it's stupid, if it weren't for the $100 bonus I would have dropped it. So I'm in the 'Other' category of the research classes. I want to do something psychological, but the teacher doesn't want me to do it. He is trying to sway my opinion to something he wants. He wants us to research what he wants to learn. I am on to him, I am sort of kind of okay at this whole psychology thing.

It kind of comes naturally to me. It's very fascinating that everyone and their momma is in this field, but there has been no progress on the mind's inner working's. I dunno. I'ma little out of it. I don't know why really. I probably need to stand up and get my blood pumping, but nah.

I was planning to start exercising this week, but then the air went out that knocked me down, then I just never started again. I really don't want to start it but once I start I really don't stop, like I hate running, I hate starting but then after like 20 seconds I enjoy it, I would probably run more if my boobs weren't so annoyingly big. I mean it's just a burden. There are means to making it less annoying but, that's just a process. I know, excuses excuses, but I'll start eventually.

So, Technetium left this week! She must have already had a myocardial infarction from all the hot asian guys all over the place! Lol. She better be having the time of her life!

Oh! So I promised you guys a description of a hot guy, let's call him Maslanka, because I could have sworn that was his last name for the LONGEST time. He's this upward bound kid I've known since 9th grade, we aren't really friends, but we know each other and talk every once in a while, especially about the cup! So all the girls were obsessed with him. I mean, he's hot. He is like 5' 7" (he said it in english class the other day) He is Hispanic, he is very tan. He is very fit and looks buff, not that ugly buff but that just right buff. He has short hair, he has brown eyes that could make you melt. He takes care of himself enough to not be a slob, but enough to not be metro. He is very intellectual so you aren't with an idiot, but he is also a jock, he plays soccer and he is aways in shape, he has short shaggy hair, which totally works for him. The only down side to him, is that he is a complete show off intellectually and a know it all. Only down side. Everything else is pretty spectacular. He's a total sensitive guy too. XD Okay, so there is my male spiel, I told you I had it in me! I just couldn't think of anyone hot. Well there is this one... nah. Later

Did that bother you? You know what I'm talking about, especially if it bothered you. I didn't put a period there! Duh! hahaha, Thulium and her boyfriend were discussing that forever ago in leadership during our lunch hour. It was the funniest thing ever and adorable!

You know what I hate? Lying. I hate lying, I'd rather not say the entire truth or avoid the question completely. I really hate it. It's one of those things that I just don't like doing. I mean, I'm a professional at lying, I can lie to your face and looking you in the eye, I don;t find it hard to do, I just hate it. I lied my out of 8th grade and all of 9th grade. I really got lost in my own lies. It's just blah. I never got caught.

Now that was a prelude to my dream last night. I woke up like... woah. That was weird. One, it was my first semi homo dream. I mean, it was weird, the person it was with was even weirder, I mean said person (we'll call her Ar [I don't think that's an element.] just for the sake of this explanation.) is attractive and all, I just don't like her, nor have I ever thought about anything about it. I have my theory about why it was her, but we'll save that for later. So. The beginning I only remember parts of it. It was greatly influenced by GTA's action. I was sneaking somewhere to go get rid of the dictator who was on a train going to his home. So I had to sneak aboard the train to attempt to kill him before i GOT THERE. I was apparently a part of a rogue group of rebels against the communist dictator. So I had no weapons on me, at all, except my brain. And this was a very long process like I'm assuming months of attempts on the dictator's life that I had a montage of attempts that I had escaped. So I was on this train and I almost get caught, but the entire train had been informed that I was there, so I had to find a hiding spot fast. So I hid next to these boxes and the outside. I struggled to hold on the entire time, afraid that my team (that was apparently on the train somewhere undercover).

I eventually was caught, and I was brought into the city of the bad. I am calling it that now, because I don't know what else to call it. It's like the entire headquarters of the dictator, it was like a castle but all indoors. And all white and hi-tech. So I somehow escape and I spend some days with my team inside the headquarters in some wing that wasn't used but near the boss. So I went to go try we are just trying to survive when we are discovered, and I am a martyr and I give myself up to give my team the ability to run away, I assume they get caught either way, and I was angry. So I am taken into this room that they were going to torture me in, this guy is asking me all these questions and I had escaped with my words the first time on the train, I don't know how. But I was the leader of the rogue group and I was being interrogated and they were about to connect me to some electric things to shock the truth out of me, I panic, but I keep my cool in my mind, and I begin to ramble what sounds like the truth, I tell them that my plans were useless and that I planned to give up and give myself up to the leader and beg my forgiveness and me and my team were willing to do anything. My team mindlessly followed me and that they weren't responsible for anything and it was all my doing.

So they completely bought it. I was that convincing, the torture people went away and the second in command said he accepted my apology and told me I would have the opportunity to apologize to the leader in person later. He also told me I had to stay in that room with other prisoners (but just like in the room not really trapped or anything) and I would be shot if i tried to escape, and that it was only a precaution, I told them I understood.

So they took us out of the a little later (like night) to go eat or go the the bathroom, I'm not very sure, I just escaped and I ran over across the hall to the rooms where my undercover team was. I saw Technetium and I was panicking because I only had so much time until I was discovered outside their room. I frantically asked her where Ar was, and she gave me this confused face, because she couldn't hear me through the door. She eventually just stood up and opened the door I ran in and I was about to tear up the entire area (it was like two rooms combined by a doorway) looking for Ar, but then I was about to go in a full sprint and she popped out of the door way and her boyfriend or ex, I don't what he was in my dream, was like a foot away from her, and he was also shocked to see me and I just stopped mid step and froze. I don't know why. Like I was shocked she was totally okay. And I tried acting all tough, and I told her while I looked at the ground and I moved the imaginary dirt (like someone said, drawing Africa on the floor "You would have died in there."

(She was in the team with me in the hallway hiding out and I believe she told me not to go and get caught to give them the opportunity to escape, because it wasn't a life I wanted them to live, she tried to go with me but I had the others stop her I told her that I was the only one that would be able to endure what ever they threw at me.)

She said "I know." and looked at me with semi watery eyes as she started walked towards me very slowly and she looked down. She looked groomed and all. I think I was surprised my entire team was able to integrate with my undercover team. But I was impressed at the same time, they had done well under my unknown training. So then Ar looked up and ran towards me and glomped(YES IT IS A WORD SPELL CHECK) me. And we just hugged for an incredibly long time, just holding on like we were afraid to let go in this dangerous place and situation (this would make an awesome movie or book) and then we were somehow in the other room next to like this entire wall window where you could see outside but the people outside only saw a wall. (I said hi-tech) and then I moved the hair out of her face and she looked up at me (she in RL is was shorter than me, but in my dream she was only slightly shorter than me, like 2-3 inches) and I kissed her, like I made the first move, which I probably would never do, I'm a complete chicken. So we only kissed for a a very short amount of time, because then her what I assumed was her girlfriend popped out of no where, and started asking something.

Then after the girl friend the two doors at the ends of the connected rooms opened and men in black and black caps opened the door and yelled something, I was totally freaking out since I wasn't even supposed to be there and I couldn't bee seen in there. But they popped in and popped back out as fast as they went in. Me still holding on to Ar, I asked her what they said, since I was too busy searching for somewhere to hide in the room where it was basically impossible. She held on to my side and she let go with her other hand and looked at her suitcase that was on her bed (which I had no noticed when we somehow got into that room) and she told me that her room (which was populated by random people I didn't know) and said that her room was going to go to Disney World in Florida and the other room where Technetium was going to Disney Land in California tomorrow. I was like, "Oh right, I'm glad you signed up" and I was thinking so you could get away from this chaos and danger. It was sponsored by the school for the smartest kids and she signed up for it. I was regretting not signing up so I could get away too, but I quickly remembered I had other responsibilities that I couldn't escape either way.

So then I held her around the waist as she did something similar and then we just started rocking slightly kind of like we were dancing but her (what I assumed) girlfriend kept nagging her about something and I tried to guide us away slyly (since apparently I'm great at it in this dream) and I attempt to kiss her again, but stupid girlfriend made Ar guarded. Stupid random girlfriend, her name was like Ronda or something like that.

And then my dream ended like that, and then I moved on to my panic about Music camp, in so many words I made it like it was after school and I forgot everything and I wasn't near anyone I knew, and it was an overnight camp thing. I was crazy and Gaby guided me through the whole dream. So many inconsistencies (OH SNAP! I spelled it right) in that dream. But you know how my dreams ended, it was the music camp one and I turned around to see who's hand was around the guy next to me, and it was Thorium next to the not so scary black guy (though I was terrified of him in the beginning) and I touched his hand, because he hadn't noticed me either (black guy was going to hug his friend which is why he swatted Thorium off of him) so I touched his hand which was inches away from me and his arm was reclined against the bar of a door. (we were all sitting against the wall). He turned around slowly and then he saw me and smiled at me, like that sleepy 'Hey' smile. And then it ended with a close up of that face.

It was weird night in all.

Now! My theory as to why I dreamed it as Ar instead of someone who I actually like. I was talking to this guy I don't like, but we have a long past together, so I tolerate him talking to me. I wouldn't tolerate anyone else like him. And I was annoyed by him in the morning. I was aggravated that he was talking to me. I stopped talking to him after a while because my research teacher finally got there. He had been texting me EVERYDAY this week and I was fed up and told him straight. I swear. I should tell him I'm a lesbian to get him away. Nah, that would NOT go over well now that I think about it. But anyways, I was annoyed by him and then he sent me 'Night' around 12 an hour or so before I fell asleep. And he likes Ar and used to go on forever about not knowing whether or not to tell her. And I think my dream was revenge. Like, HA I could get her and you couldn't. And the girlfriend had a name kind of sorta not really at all close to the guy's name. So that's MY theory. Considering this dream had SO many things I have learned about this week and hinted at things I had learned about.

I think that's all. My Stat teacher is a beast. Apparently UBMS switched the trip that was originally to new york then to the southern states is back on to new york but only the people that signed up for the southern trip could go. I found out in Calculus, and I was already frustrated at the fact I didn't know anything, then to find out that, I was close to angry tears. I didn't go to the trip for the one reason it wasn't to New York as planned. EVERY COLLEGE I WANT TO GO TO IS IN NEW YORK. I mean I feel bamboozled. I feel like betrayed by the organization. I mean wtf is that. I was incredibly pissed. I love Statistics. The teacher is fun and teaches with M&M's. It's great! I can't wait for his class again. Let's see what else. I think that's it. Oh! My English teacher is a gay black guy. I don't think he identifies as gay though. But he is is SOOO gay. My Economics teacher is a really nice old white guy, he even sounds like the nicest guy ever. My Government teacher is crazy, and my Calculus teacher is an ass hole. 'Nough said.

I think that's it for real this time XD
Bye guys!

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