I am so fucking exhausted, but this is the only time I will be able to motivate myself to write this. Super condensed version. I got a job speaking spanish for an hour everyday. I wrote a speech about 20 minutes before I had to present it. I made 2nd chair out of the 4 of us. I'm the only freshman. Emma is 3rd, she's a junior. Chris is 1st, he's a senior. Diane is last(she didn't audition she's doing it later), I think she's either a senior or junior. Tara made wind ensemble, 3rd chair out of like 7. Tara is my mus. ed friend here. I'm volunteering somewhere far away to walk to. Shoot me. I still have no money. From my loan, which means I don't have my books. I hate life. I'm tired and I really hate taking showers here. I practice. I suck at piano. I wish it would die. I am slacking. I'm sure I'm failing 3 of my classes due to lack of me turning in work. My tests are beast, I just hate doing stupid homework. And not having a book to do it with. So that pisses me off. I'm being really lazy. I want mexican food, or taco bell, I want to not be afraid to touch things in the 2 by 2 shower stall. I am complaining on here because Tara is a little pessimistic bitch, so I can't complain or say the negative things on my mind. I really miss keonna, angeli, my gil, and people from school. I want my hug from angeli. I want to hug Gil goodbye. I want a hug. Like. I'm so lonely. No lie. On the bright side I think I made a friend with this girl named Julianne. I really, legit want to get to know her. She seems legit and fun. It appears that she likes me too. So I think I made a new friend. Tara is think ing of transferring next semester. Which would kinda be good and bad for me. I would finally be able to branch out and be friends with other people because I always feel bad leaving her alone when I speak to others. But bad because she reminds me of all my homework I have to do. Ugh. I've met basically her entire family. Her mother, father, only sister, grandmother, grandfather, aunt, fake uncle, and her 2 little cousins. I am tired. as heck like for real.