Okay guys! Serious shit time of the month! So! A few days ago, I think either earlier this week or late last week I got really pissed off at Gil. I was attempting to keep conversation with him. He's my friend, one of my best friends, and I wanted to keep in touch. So I was fighting against being tired and busy and past him being tired and busy and I tried speaking with him. Honestly at the end it was like he wasn't even paying attention to what I was writing. I don't know if he was or wasn't but that's what it felt like and... ugh. So I told him, in a very pissy way. Then after I calmed down and he yelled back at me, I decided to tell him what the fuck I was feeling still angry but less bitchy. Just angry and hurt. He didn't reply. I haven't talked to him sense. It hurts, but not as bad as before. I just miss him. I miss hugging my friends, I miss getting hugs from my friends. I miss getting attacked by my friends. I miss it a lot. People here are great, but I'm just not there yet with them. I'm kinda afraid I will get too attached if I hug them, or that I will just like, hang on for dear life because it's just so painful being away from those who love me and the ones I love. I miss Gil, I miss Angeli, I miss Keonna, I miss Taylor, I miss Kristine, I miss Kristina, I miss Fernando, I miss Jacque, I miss Mai, I miss bendorf, I miss AP theory, I miss Taylor S., I miss Vince. Man. I'm just lonely in the midst of friends. I feel that Julianne can be one of those friends, like I feel a weird connection to her. It's weird. But I do. Anyways. I just though you guys should know.