Okay, so I thought I was screwed forever because the person whose internet I mooch off of no longer was on my list(convieniently they stopped it like an hour or two after the last Harry Potter Premiere) and I thought my internet was gone for good.
Then this guy started up a new connection and it has this guest account. But it had a password and I thought I was fucked.
Lucky for me, I guessed the password.
Next time, don't use the name of the account. That was like my 4th guess.
Thursday, July 7, 2011
I can't even.
So I'm extremely pissed.
I know that post from yesterday seemed angry, but I was frustrated.
No today I'm fucking pissed.
I took my final in like 40 minutes(about 10 minutes more than I usually do), it was fairly easy.
Afterwards I walked out and was going to my car. Alex, one of my exes, was sitting in his car waiting for me. I walked past his car and he asked me how the test was. So, we talked. It was nice. We talked for about 30 minutes.
Then he was like I gotta go and I was like yeah. Okay. Throughout the conversation he kept asking me what I was going to do after we finished talking. I told him idk, probably going home.
Then he finally asked me at the end of our conversation and I told him probably home.
Then he was like, wanna fool around?
Several things crossed through my mind. Wtf? Hell no. You fucking cheating bastard. What the hell. Fuck off.
My reaction was shaking my head and saying no(in a way that was like hahahaha you're funny I would never let you touch me) and he was like, so no? And I was like yeah, no.
Okay.
This asshole. We went out my freshman year. I was supposedly going to fuck him or whatever. In all honesty I was never going to do it, he wasn't my type nor did he have decent equipment. I probably would have if he were like double what he was then. but nope. The thought was revolting really, and it still is.
After we broke up we generally didn't talk mostly because it was awkward for me. The guy I first had sex with was more of a fwb minus the friends, it was more like ihkyaltawb I Have Known You A Long Time Acquaintance With Benifits. So we never ever interacted that and we were in different social groups.
Then he went out with one of his first "serious" girlfriends. They fucked all the time, he was best friends with one of my close friends at the time so she would tell me that that's all he would ever talk about.
Then when they broke up, he texted me asking me if I was still up for sex. I was like no. Hell no.
Then they started going out like a few days later.
Then they broke up for good. I didn't hear anything from him. Then he started going out with his (from what I know) current girlfriend.
They went out a nice while. Then one day randomly near the end of the year, we started talking again and then he asked me if I wanted to fool around again. Now, this time I knew FOR A FACT that they were going steady, because his girlfriend sat diagonally from me in first period.
I was like no, but we can hang out. I ended up not going. One because as revolting as I found him I was extremely sexually frustrated and I didn't trust my body to do the right thing.
And now this. He is a fucking ass hole. I swear.
What is up with guys wanting to fuck me when they have girlfriends.
The one guy I thought was the largest sleaze, turned out to be the moral one! What the hell?!
Gil wanted to fuck me while with his current girlfriend not so long ago.
I'm so sick of these guys with one track minds.
Probably one of the many reason why I want a girlfriend I can just romance and just cherish. I want to kind of prove to myself that it is possible for someone to like someone and have them be treated like the most amazing thing in the world.
It's a bit ridiculous I know, but I just have to know that if the rest of the world sucks that at least I can treat someone right and have them feel great about themselves.
People suck, especially the guys in my life.
I know that post from yesterday seemed angry, but I was frustrated.
No today I'm fucking pissed.
I took my final in like 40 minutes(about 10 minutes more than I usually do), it was fairly easy.
Afterwards I walked out and was going to my car. Alex, one of my exes, was sitting in his car waiting for me. I walked past his car and he asked me how the test was. So, we talked. It was nice. We talked for about 30 minutes.
Then he was like I gotta go and I was like yeah. Okay. Throughout the conversation he kept asking me what I was going to do after we finished talking. I told him idk, probably going home.
Then he finally asked me at the end of our conversation and I told him probably home.
Then he was like, wanna fool around?
Several things crossed through my mind. Wtf? Hell no. You fucking cheating bastard. What the hell. Fuck off.
My reaction was shaking my head and saying no(in a way that was like hahahaha you're funny I would never let you touch me) and he was like, so no? And I was like yeah, no.
Okay.
This asshole. We went out my freshman year. I was supposedly going to fuck him or whatever. In all honesty I was never going to do it, he wasn't my type nor did he have decent equipment. I probably would have if he were like double what he was then. but nope. The thought was revolting really, and it still is.
After we broke up we generally didn't talk mostly because it was awkward for me. The guy I first had sex with was more of a fwb minus the friends, it was more like ihkyaltawb I Have Known You A Long Time Acquaintance With Benifits. So we never ever interacted that and we were in different social groups.
Then he went out with one of his first "serious" girlfriends. They fucked all the time, he was best friends with one of my close friends at the time so she would tell me that that's all he would ever talk about.
Then when they broke up, he texted me asking me if I was still up for sex. I was like no. Hell no.
Then they started going out like a few days later.
Then they broke up for good. I didn't hear anything from him. Then he started going out with his (from what I know) current girlfriend.
They went out a nice while. Then one day randomly near the end of the year, we started talking again and then he asked me if I wanted to fool around again. Now, this time I knew FOR A FACT that they were going steady, because his girlfriend sat diagonally from me in first period.
I was like no, but we can hang out. I ended up not going. One because as revolting as I found him I was extremely sexually frustrated and I didn't trust my body to do the right thing.
And now this. He is a fucking ass hole. I swear.
What is up with guys wanting to fuck me when they have girlfriends.
The one guy I thought was the largest sleaze, turned out to be the moral one! What the hell?!
Gil wanted to fuck me while with his current girlfriend not so long ago.
I'm so sick of these guys with one track minds.
Probably one of the many reason why I want a girlfriend I can just romance and just cherish. I want to kind of prove to myself that it is possible for someone to like someone and have them be treated like the most amazing thing in the world.
It's a bit ridiculous I know, but I just have to know that if the rest of the world sucks that at least I can treat someone right and have them feel great about themselves.
People suck, especially the guys in my life.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
My Fucking List.
Inspired by a serious of events and Jenna's new video.
I am going to make a semi public list of people I would fuck. Yup. Semi public because some people have this blog but they never actually read it.
A partial list that is in no particular order
People I Would Fuck:
Angeli
Jacque
Gil
Ashely(a girl on Tumblr)
Molly(on Tumblr)
Kristina(if she didn't speak)
Paola
Marissa Lo.
Marissa LeJ
Taylor
BB Lauren
Shelby
Christine
Clarita
Logan
Liz
Sam F(again no speaking)
Sam G.
Yadira
Lily Loveless
Kathyrn Prescott
Kristen Stewart
Emma Watson
Rachel Shelly
Salazar(Felipe)
Leslie
Abril
Jennifer(definitely no speaking)
Olivia Wilde
Jennifer Morrison
People in the italics are people I would fuck them so hard...
I am going to make a semi public list of people I would fuck. Yup. Semi public because some people have this blog but they never actually read it.
A partial list that is in no particular order
People I Would Fuck:
Angeli
Jacque
Gil
Ashely(a girl on Tumblr)
Molly(on Tumblr)
Kristina(if she didn't speak)
Paola
Marissa Lo.
Marissa LeJ
Taylor
BB Lauren
Shelby
Christine
Clarita
Logan
Liz
Sam F(again no speaking)
Sam G.
Yadira
Lily Loveless
Kathyrn Prescott
Kristen Stewart
Emma Watson
Rachel Shelly
Salazar(Felipe)
Leslie
Abril
Jennifer(definitely no speaking)
Olivia Wilde
Jennifer Morrison
People in the italics are people I would fuck them so hard...
Fucking Shitting Fuck.
That test I took yesterday?
Yup. I got a fucking 96.
Now, I know you're like SWEET! You got a great score!
Only in my mind I'm fucking pissed. I didn't figure this one thing out. This one subject. And fuck. Of course it was on there. Of course. And I missed it because I didn't know how to do it. I still don't apparently it's fucking obvious. It's a fucking foreign language to me. And to just add insult to injury the fucking answer was the initial question. (It was matricies and getting the inverse of a 3x3) and fucking fuck.
It was 5 points. FIVE points. That would have given me a 101. And the bonus, I WOULD have gotten it correct if I hadn't read the fucking book. Pile of fucking shit that is.
Which would have been a 102.
I got a 93 as a raw score but I got +3 for doing all my homework. If you did the math, it doesn't add up.
The 2 points that you're missing are points I lost because I didn't get the right answer. When he explained it. Of course, I did everything right except I didn't factor correctly.
Thanks a fucking lot Mr. fucking Bunquin for not teaching shit and thank you Mr. Ali for seriously not teaching me ONE thing therefore screwing me over and me having to learn both Pre-Cal and basic algebra skills in AP calculus with a teacher that was actually WILLING to teach me. Fuck you guys very much.
Ugh.
Anyways. I still haven't received my AP scores, which I guess is a good thing because if I do badly then I would be fucking discouraged and I would bomb my test tomorrow(Though I can get a 24 on my final and I'd still pass my class, in theory.)
I'm becoming a fucking band director none of this shit matters. Fucking shit shit.
Yup. I got a fucking 96.
Now, I know you're like SWEET! You got a great score!
Only in my mind I'm fucking pissed. I didn't figure this one thing out. This one subject. And fuck. Of course it was on there. Of course. And I missed it because I didn't know how to do it. I still don't apparently it's fucking obvious. It's a fucking foreign language to me. And to just add insult to injury the fucking answer was the initial question. (It was matricies and getting the inverse of a 3x3) and fucking fuck.
It was 5 points. FIVE points. That would have given me a 101. And the bonus, I WOULD have gotten it correct if I hadn't read the fucking book. Pile of fucking shit that is.
Which would have been a 102.
I got a 93 as a raw score but I got +3 for doing all my homework. If you did the math, it doesn't add up.
The 2 points that you're missing are points I lost because I didn't get the right answer. When he explained it. Of course, I did everything right except I didn't factor correctly.
Thanks a fucking lot Mr. fucking Bunquin for not teaching shit and thank you Mr. Ali for seriously not teaching me ONE thing therefore screwing me over and me having to learn both Pre-Cal and basic algebra skills in AP calculus with a teacher that was actually WILLING to teach me. Fuck you guys very much.
Ugh.
Anyways. I still haven't received my AP scores, which I guess is a good thing because if I do badly then I would be fucking discouraged and I would bomb my test tomorrow(Though I can get a 24 on my final and I'd still pass my class, in theory.)
I'm becoming a fucking band director none of this shit matters. Fucking shit shit.
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
Test test test test...
Hahaha!
Ah, I have a test at 7:30 a.m. in the morning. It's 2a.m.
I finished my half assed homework like 20 minutes ago after about 3-4 hours of working on it and remembering it.
Now I'm tired, but I'm not really sleepy.
Lame.
Ah, I have a test at 7:30 a.m. in the morning. It's 2a.m.
I finished my half assed homework like 20 minutes ago after about 3-4 hours of working on it and remembering it.
Now I'm tired, but I'm not really sleepy.
Lame.
Sunday, July 3, 2011
Dreaming?
I was going to post this, this morning but I got side tracked. Utterly side tracked to the point that I just remembered I was going to post this.
Last night I had about 5 distinct dreams. Not like the ones that seem like they only were minutes long. But 5 dreams that seemed to take forever.
I didn't remember much when I woke up and I don't remember almost anything now but I'll tell you the things that stuck out at me.
One dream was a very surreal dream that was a bit minecrafty but irl and space agey.
My last dream was completely random but I believe I was shopping on a budget at some grocery store with my friends, only I don't know any of them. And I was looking at this rustic thing, and the place was like a farmers market, completely organic but indoors.
And I was looking at some things with this lady who worked there(I assume) guiding me as I searched. And then I saw these powders in jars and I asked if they were spices and she was sidetracked and as I reached for this jar next to this straw thin sack with something inside of them. And I some how caught the string that closed the sack and the lady grabbed it from in between my fingers as I clutched the jar I had just ignored by that time because I was flabbergasted that I grabbed it and the lady was telling me that she liked them too, I think she called them wormtail and they were these little seed looking things and this short thin leafy thing. And she told me she liked the long one but the seed things were nasty. And prior to that told her I had never tasted them. And I was like fuck it, everything once and I ate the long one and just as I was about the bite down on the supposed nasty one I woke up.
It was very odd.
The dream I think I had before that one was something about school in a lounge of sorts, kinda like my old band hall luxury of being able to do whatever when you weren't being patrolled.
All I remember is that I was lounging across this couch, if not I'm pretty sure my legs were laying on the couch, so the only logical thing would be lounging but idk.
And the room was dark because we were watching something on a tv. And this girl I know, totally straight and someone I'm not actually attracted to and I haven't talked to in several months just comes all willy nilly in a very serious way sits down moves me aside in sorts and then just basically cuddles infront of me while facing the t.v.
I'm like wtf? okay, whatever. And I continue to watch it(it's a completely staticy screen, like on cartoons when they don't show what's on t.v. but you can see the white blaring screen in the shot making it clear that it's on), and I'm not trying to think about it because I feel really awkward breathing when anyone is laying on any part of me let alone my entire front half and my arm is draped around her mid section(she's only like 1/2 inch shorter than me) because that's where it landed after she put it back down after she cuddled next to me.
And I was trying to hold myself up with my other arm like I had been doing leaning my head against it. After a bit of balance of strength struggle I stopped shaking and I was cool, then I felt her breath hitch repeatedly for a few moments then everything was cool again, then a few moments later I guess she thought I looked uncomfortable after I readjusted(even though I wasn't since I had found a good spot moments earlier) and she grabbed my arms gently and guided it to her knee and at first I held it in it's claw type form it had reached but then after relaxing it a bit more I decided just fuck it it's not like I ever talk to her, and I let my had cup her KNEE.
Then after a while she removed my hands and stood up and left then the lights turned on and the t.v. time was over.
Also I think I was saving someone, trying to die, or saving the world prior and I was just trying to relax. I dunno. It was really weird all in all.
Especially because I never have distinct dreams and certainly I never have several in a row the entire night. I thought that was weird.
My day was dull. I watched Youtube videos and played minecraft all day basically because nothing good was on t.v.
Last night I had about 5 distinct dreams. Not like the ones that seem like they only were minutes long. But 5 dreams that seemed to take forever.
I didn't remember much when I woke up and I don't remember almost anything now but I'll tell you the things that stuck out at me.
One dream was a very surreal dream that was a bit minecrafty but irl and space agey.
My last dream was completely random but I believe I was shopping on a budget at some grocery store with my friends, only I don't know any of them. And I was looking at this rustic thing, and the place was like a farmers market, completely organic but indoors.
And I was looking at some things with this lady who worked there(I assume) guiding me as I searched. And then I saw these powders in jars and I asked if they were spices and she was sidetracked and as I reached for this jar next to this straw thin sack with something inside of them. And I some how caught the string that closed the sack and the lady grabbed it from in between my fingers as I clutched the jar I had just ignored by that time because I was flabbergasted that I grabbed it and the lady was telling me that she liked them too, I think she called them wormtail and they were these little seed looking things and this short thin leafy thing. And she told me she liked the long one but the seed things were nasty. And prior to that told her I had never tasted them. And I was like fuck it, everything once and I ate the long one and just as I was about the bite down on the supposed nasty one I woke up.
It was very odd.
The dream I think I had before that one was something about school in a lounge of sorts, kinda like my old band hall luxury of being able to do whatever when you weren't being patrolled.
All I remember is that I was lounging across this couch, if not I'm pretty sure my legs were laying on the couch, so the only logical thing would be lounging but idk.
And the room was dark because we were watching something on a tv. And this girl I know, totally straight and someone I'm not actually attracted to and I haven't talked to in several months just comes all willy nilly in a very serious way sits down moves me aside in sorts and then just basically cuddles infront of me while facing the t.v.
I'm like wtf? okay, whatever. And I continue to watch it(it's a completely staticy screen, like on cartoons when they don't show what's on t.v. but you can see the white blaring screen in the shot making it clear that it's on), and I'm not trying to think about it because I feel really awkward breathing when anyone is laying on any part of me let alone my entire front half and my arm is draped around her mid section(she's only like 1/2 inch shorter than me) because that's where it landed after she put it back down after she cuddled next to me.
And I was trying to hold myself up with my other arm like I had been doing leaning my head against it. After a bit of balance of strength struggle I stopped shaking and I was cool, then I felt her breath hitch repeatedly for a few moments then everything was cool again, then a few moments later I guess she thought I looked uncomfortable after I readjusted(even though I wasn't since I had found a good spot moments earlier) and she grabbed my arms gently and guided it to her knee and at first I held it in it's claw type form it had reached but then after relaxing it a bit more I decided just fuck it it's not like I ever talk to her, and I let my had cup her KNEE.
Then after a while she removed my hands and stood up and left then the lights turned on and the t.v. time was over.
Also I think I was saving someone, trying to die, or saving the world prior and I was just trying to relax. I dunno. It was really weird all in all.
Especially because I never have distinct dreams and certainly I never have several in a row the entire night. I thought that was weird.
My day was dull. I watched Youtube videos and played minecraft all day basically because nothing good was on t.v.
Friday, July 1, 2011
Could she be more awesome?
I just have to say, I'm half addicted to Minecraft.
I only get annoyed when I don't know what to do. Like what to build first or where. I'm in the process of building a little castle and fuck me is it not as easy as it sounds.
And it doesn't sound easy.
It's extremely time consuming, I tried making a video about it and yeah... Epic failosity.
Okay, this is getting awkward. I'm mixing Tobuscus and Yogcast lingo.
If you don't know who I'm talking about, go look them up NAO!!!!
*TOBY AWKWARD PAUSE* TRANSITION!
I woke up very aggravated. Never, I mean NEVER wake me up on my day's off. The house better be in direct danger or I better be two seconds from death because I will KILL you.
My parents woke me up twice. The second time they wanted me up so we could all go out to eat. I could have murdered someone. I took my sweet time to calm the fuck down and to piss them the fuck off.
It all worked out to my advantage! Minus the me being able to sleep part.
Second of all, my semi crush, ah.
We had a conversation, sorta, about this video game trailer, Dead Island, online, and yeah. She just slightly rose her awesome level!
If she weren't straight, had a boyfriend, and still in high school making it statutory rape, I was would totally pursue her. If I had a list of things that attract me to people, she would make up most the list.
ANYWAYS!
I'm going to go possibly download Single Player Commands for minecraft then continue to craft my castle town.
OMG, I downloaded the BetterThanWolves Mod for Minecraft after I saw the Yogscast video over it and it has some fucking amazing things and I'm so fucking excited to build them all XD I just had to build my city first(though I'm not too creative until I'm in the mix of things) or at least the walls before I could do anything and I'm so excited XD.
SO YES!
I just had a super nerd Minecraft moment, until my next extremely boring blog!!!
I only get annoyed when I don't know what to do. Like what to build first or where. I'm in the process of building a little castle and fuck me is it not as easy as it sounds.
And it doesn't sound easy.
It's extremely time consuming, I tried making a video about it and yeah... Epic failosity.
Okay, this is getting awkward. I'm mixing Tobuscus and Yogcast lingo.
If you don't know who I'm talking about, go look them up NAO!!!!
*TOBY AWKWARD PAUSE* TRANSITION!
I woke up very aggravated. Never, I mean NEVER wake me up on my day's off. The house better be in direct danger or I better be two seconds from death because I will KILL you.
My parents woke me up twice. The second time they wanted me up so we could all go out to eat. I could have murdered someone. I took my sweet time to calm the fuck down and to piss them the fuck off.
It all worked out to my advantage! Minus the me being able to sleep part.
Second of all, my semi crush, ah.
We had a conversation, sorta, about this video game trailer, Dead Island, online, and yeah. She just slightly rose her awesome level!
If she weren't straight, had a boyfriend, and still in high school making it statutory rape, I was would totally pursue her. If I had a list of things that attract me to people, she would make up most the list.
ANYWAYS!
I'm going to go possibly download Single Player Commands for minecraft then continue to craft my castle town.
OMG, I downloaded the BetterThanWolves Mod for Minecraft after I saw the Yogscast video over it and it has some fucking amazing things and I'm so fucking excited to build them all XD I just had to build my city first(though I'm not too creative until I'm in the mix of things) or at least the walls before I could do anything and I'm so excited XD.
SO YES!
I just had a super nerd Minecraft moment, until my next extremely boring blog!!!
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