I can't even.

So I'm extremely pissed.

I know that post from yesterday seemed angry, but I was frustrated.

No today I'm fucking pissed.

I took my final in like 40 minutes(about 10 minutes more than I usually do), it was fairly easy.

Afterwards I walked out and was going to my car. Alex, one of my exes, was sitting in his car waiting for me. I walked past his car and he asked me how the test was. So, we talked. It was nice. We talked for about 30 minutes.

Then he was like I gotta go and I was like yeah. Okay. Throughout the conversation he kept asking me what I was going to do after we finished talking. I told him idk, probably going home.

Then he finally asked me at the end of our conversation and I told him probably home.

Then he was like, wanna fool around?

Several things crossed through my mind. Wtf? Hell no. You fucking cheating bastard. What the hell. Fuck off.

My reaction was shaking my head and saying no(in a way that was like hahahaha you're funny I would never let you touch me) and he was like, so no? And I was like yeah, no.

Okay.

This asshole. We went out my freshman year. I was supposedly going to fuck him or whatever. In all honesty I was never going to do it, he wasn't my type nor did he have decent equipment. I probably would have if he were like double what he was then. but nope. The thought was revolting really, and it still is.

After we broke up we generally didn't talk mostly because it was awkward for me. The guy I first had sex with was more of a fwb minus the friends, it was more like ihkyaltawb I Have Known You A Long Time Acquaintance With Benifits. So we never ever interacted that and we were in different social groups.

Then he went out with one of his first "serious" girlfriends. They fucked all the time, he was best friends with one of my close friends at the time so she would tell me that that's all he would ever talk about.

Then when they broke up, he texted me asking me if I was still up for sex. I was like no. Hell no.

Then they started going out like a few days later.

Then they broke up for good. I didn't hear anything from him. Then he started going out with his (from what I know) current girlfriend.

They went out a nice while. Then one day randomly near the end of the year, we started talking again and then he asked me if I wanted to fool around again. Now, this time I knew FOR A FACT that they were going steady, because his girlfriend sat diagonally from me in first period.

I was like no, but we can hang out. I ended up not going. One because as revolting as I found him I was extremely sexually frustrated and I didn't trust my body to do the right thing.

And now this. He is a fucking ass hole. I swear.

What is up with guys wanting to fuck me when they have girlfriends.

The one guy I thought was the largest sleaze, turned out to be the moral one! What the hell?!

Gil wanted to fuck me while with his current girlfriend not so long ago.


I'm so sick of these guys with one track minds.



Probably one of the many reason why I want a girlfriend I can just romance and just cherish. I want to kind of prove to myself that it is possible for someone to like someone and have them be treated like the most amazing thing in the world.

It's a bit ridiculous I know, but I just have to know that if the rest of the world sucks that at least I can treat someone right and have them feel great about themselves.

People suck, especially the guys in my life.