06.24.11

I feel a need to blog on a day like today.

Today 6/42/11 Gay marriage in New York was legalized.

Now. I'm sure you've very much noticed my increased interest in LGBT anything.
Tumblr pretty much keeps me in a twister of it. Not that I really mind.

I have always thought gay anything was fine, I mean what was the difference between them and me, except the fact they would be persecuted for the simple fact that they loved different people then I did. I always thought that was fucked up.

It's just that everyday I notice more and more how my entire life was designed so I would be steered away from liking girls.

I always liked to hang out with the boys more when I was in elementary school, then my favorite teacher told my mom who then told me to play with the girls and then the teacher told me to go play with the girls.

That was none of their fucking business and they made me think it was wrong that I liked playing with boys better. I mean what the fuck? Closed minded bitches.

Anyways. There was another occasion where I was trying to look at something on the other side of my friend(when we were sitting against the wall indian style) and she I put my hand on her thigh to not fall on her, and she was like SPAZ WTF don't do that they might think it's something.

Now, considering I was the most oblivious naive girl in elementary school I was like... what? and she left.
Bitch, I bet she turned out gay. Fucking asshole. She was a wannabe bitch anyways.

ANYWAYS!

Then we all know my disney story and the story of the girl in the ball pit with me in pre-k.

God adults were bitches and cock blockers!

Parents are huge cock blockers.

The other day, this girl was checking me out at my local Sam's.

She was pretty much staring at me. She was hot. However I was with my mother and I could gawk at her, and she was with her entire family. It was infuriating to say the least.

So, my Tumblr is going ape shit over the legalization of gay marriage in New York while my facebook is wrapped around teenage drama. I mean wtf? The one status on there was;

"damn. they done legalized gay marriage in new york. smh. Adam and Eve not Adam and Steve."

First of all, what the flipping fuck? So I see it has comments and I'm like okay lets see what these kids have to say. And then this little fuck who is stupid as shit starts agreeing with him and making stupid comments while these 3 other people are like stop being stupid(in so many words) the last comment on the status was from stupid fucker:

"gay people need to leaves us alone, trying to make us feel bad about not supporting gay marrige..."

What the actual fuck?

I still feel like grabbing his ugly awkward fucking head and going Evil kid Buu vs Vegeta on his fucking ass.

I hate people right now.

So I was pissed and I was like "It's on monumental days like these, that you realize who the ignorant idiots are."

And two of my favorite people liked it. My favorite little sophomore and my Viny! (Viny is a girl a grade higher than me who has always been level headed)

There's still hope for humanity.

If they had said that shit near me, oh the shit I would have told them.

Like they say, no one is born hating homosexuals.

Why shouldn't people be allowed to love each other?

Ugh, just some stupid shit.

Fuck, if I'm going to hell for being mostly gay, well fuck I'm going to love hell, it's going to be a fucking party!

It get's very fucking frustrating.

Hm... in other news.

Whenever I speak to any of my ex's they either bring drama with them or want to fuck me.

It's starting to get fucking annoying. It's like piss off, there's a reason I'm not with you, because you fucking suck.



I've learned to let go. It's pretty cool. It's very relaxing.

My entire mindset is very laid back.

My view on relationships? If you're willing to fight for me and I'm willing to fight for you we're good. If you fight for me and I fucking like/love you then I will fight demons straight from hell to be with you. Otherwise, it's not worth emotionally investing myself and it's just a fun past time.

Life? Take it as it comes. If it's bad look at the positive and see what will be, instead of what it won't. Fight for what you love and fuck everything else. Do what you want, not what others want from you. It's your fucking life and you only get one so fucking love it or make sure you'll love it. Everything else is shit other than your happiness.

Don't be a selfish fuck, love others as you want to be loved, even if they don't love you. Everyone deserves respect. Never say anything that is insulting for no reason. Don't be fucking ignorant because you're surrounded by people who don't give any fucks and people who will instill hate into your heart to get the people who don't give fucks to hate you.

Surround yourself with people who love you as you love them otherwise they aren't worth getting emotionally invested.

Take chances on things that can make you happy. Otherwise move on.

Basically if you love doing it or will love doing it, do it, if not, fuck it.