Awkwardness

It's been ages guys! Has it really?

I don't actually know, I just blog when I start really wanting to post very lengthy posts on tumblr or facebook. Okay, tumblr because facebook is full of curious people not people who care.

Oh wow, I just checked, my last post was on May 3rd, it was a rant XD

Those are always fun.

In all honesty, I'm on here because I think I forgot to push anonymous on this playful banter between me and someone who I follow, and I'm too chicken to check. But it will help me be distracted and it inspired me to write about what happens when I'm on the brink of possible embarrassment.

I think I get a rush of pure adrenaline that shoots to my heart and my head. I get slightly light headed but with the sudden energy there's no way I could fall. And my instinct after that is, fuck it. Like the Chris from Skins fuck it.

It's the nothing bad will happen now, what does it matter? Let's have fun! What's the worst that can happen?! And I can let loose.

This has only happened once with people around me. Luckily for me I was around someone boring. It wasn't taken advantage of.

I NEVER take advantage of anything fun, I've only once just been like fuck it. Let's do it.

I'm always level headed I never attacked my best friend when I could have. I never just told people I liked them, I never just go crazy.

I think I need to go for it one day.