Fuck it! For Chris!

I have mentally been clouded all week. After Sunday when I stayed up until ungodly hours doing homework I was exhausted. I still got the highest grades on that test XD

But even now I feel tired!

My eyes are heavy and my head is always on that if you lean it a certain way on something you'll feel the pleasure of getting closer to sleep.

Everyday XD And I'm actually too awake to be able to sleep. I know. I've tried to take naps.

I've tried very hard to exhaust myself. It's ridiculous.

ANYWAYS!

That dude called me a few days ago, actually! It was when I was doing my homework I believe. I didn't answer because I didn't have the time nor the brain power to really have a conversation, it would have been a bunch of nonsense.

I dunno about you guys, but when I do math and I'm confused or weighing my options I speak in my mind. It's like thinking, but I have an intelligible conversation.

It's odd! Oh! did I say this yesterday? I'm not sure! I'll say it again if I did.

I watched this thing that talked about associating numbers with colors and such. The other day I told my friends that I associate numbers with colors and they looked at me like I was crazy XD

It's weird because it doesn't sit well with my when numbers on paper are in color because they are the wrong shade or characteristic. I know, crazy.

Apparently it's this whole thing and people actually are pro at it. Like some chick does it with letters and she won a spelling bee because of it.

Pretty beast.

Yeah! They have like characteristics and colors in my mind. It's not really conscience I just see them in my minds eye in that way when I think about numbers.

Bleh bleh bleh.

My mind totally bogged down. It's like I had a long hard days work but I haven't done anything. So lame.

Hm... I've been incredibly anti social with some of my friends because I always forget to text people back so when I think about texting someone I think about the ways I won't be able to respond in like an hour or 30 minutes. If they IMed me I would totally answer because my computer is always infront of me.

The only person who I tried to talk to was one of my ex's and jeez is that guy annoying. He's a year older than me but dumb as fuck. Not really intelligence wise, he's a little below average but no biggie, he has no freaking common sense. He's an idiot. So I stopped that.

If it weren't for class I for sure would speak to no one. It's a bit liberating, though. It;s like I can speak to whoever I want now because I can, not because I needed to not piss off this one person, or this person said that about them, it's plainly. I can go up and talk to anyone whenever I want.

I suck at talking to new people however. It's like.... awkward awkward awkward awkward awkward awkward Awkward Awkward Awkward Awkward Awkward Awkward Awkward AWKWARD AWKWARD AWKWARD AWKWARD AWKWARD!!!!! RANDOM BURST OF SPAZ AND RANDOM!!!

Like if I really want to be friends with them.

One of my now friends moved from Cali to here a little after freshman year started and she was in band with us. So Fernando and I were sitting there on a free day just talking and then I saw her sitting all alone doing a lanyard. I asked Fernando if we should talk to her, he was like if you want.

So the way I approached it was like this.

She was sitting a good ten feet away and I said something along the lines of "CYNTHIA!" she looks up like what? "Why are you sitting there being all anti-social?!"

"What?"

"Get over here!"

"What? No it's okay really!

"Cynthia! Drag your chair over here or we'll drag you over here ourselves!" Now Fernando plays along and does nods his head like yeah.

"No really! I'm okay!"

"CYNTHIA! GET OVER HERE!"

"Okay okay!"


And yeah... we;ve been friends ever since XD She's the only person I actually remember how we met. How would I not?!

Yup!