Nevermore

I can't decide whether I want a relationship or not right now. I mean, I guess that's easy to think of when there are .0000000000000000000000000000001 chances that I'm going to find someone to be in a relationship in this ridiculously small town. It's so dumb I can barely handle it. However, I can't help but imagine what I would be like in a relationship. What it would be like. Considering the last boyfriend relationship I had was completely fuck and when I was fucking young. Have my 5 years helped me grow to the better or the worse, because I've had some fucked relationships with other individuals since then. I mean damn. I guess we won't find out until I finally fall for someone. And have them fall for me. In other words... never.