Metal Slug

MY AIR IS FIXED! I know it's going to break again, because I am pretty sure the issue isn't the A/C unit itself, but more the entire A/C thing. I don't know anything about it, but it's not a coincidence.

Hm... so, what have I learned since the year began.

I have learned what it truly means to be broken again and having to piece together the already broken shards. I have learned what it's like to find a friend that actually helped save me from going down a very very bad path. I'm not sure I've ever said thank you. You know who you are if you are even going to read this. Thank you for helping and ultimately saving me from what could have easily been a downward spiral.

I've also learned how to move on and what an anti-productive relationship me and Thorium had. I've learned how hard it is to let go of a friend you really really cared and loved for so we could both move on. Hardest thing I've ever had to do. He was basically like a drug lol, he was just really great like, I know he can be a douche, but only a few people get to know a different side of him and I was privileged to even get a taste of that. But it was just bad for both of us. It was my choice, he gave me that choice,, and I chose to let the close relationship we had go. And no I don't mean relationship relationship, I mean a friendship relationship.

I haven't learned the meaning of love yet. I kind of hope to not to. Because yeah love and loss. What ever. You know what I mean.

I have learned what the meaning of friendship is and how great it is.

I've learned that I've pretty much have had no experience with my friends feelings. Pretty much because my past best friends have been really stupid emotionally. Yt pretty much doesn't know what emotion is let alone let anyone else know what she is feeling even back then, dare I say it's actually gotten worse as the years have gone by. Thorium was just a hurt puppy that bit anything that got near to what he was feeling.

I have learned about what kind of life I want to lead. I have learned what I want and I'm honestly not ready to leave what I've built here, but I am ready to start a new journey, building what I want and what I will accomplish. I may not be ready now, but hopefully in a year I am going to be able to leave keeping in contact with those who want to.

So I'm willing to grow this year. I am going to grow this year, I am going to learn things to become a better person, I'm not going to perfect my personality has it's flaws, no matter how much I hate it. So ear with me, I'm trying but there are parts of being social that I haven't experienced yet, so I'm a rookie and I want to learn, I will learn, but I can only learn by making mistakes.

I know a lot of things, I know how to do a lot of things categorized as bad, I know how to do a lot of things categorized as good, but right now my social skills lean more to knowing how to do bad things, I will make the good things go up. But there's only so much I can do in a short amount of time.

I have become more responsible and more willing to help others. I want to learn, I will learn as much as possible, but I'm anti-social, so being social will be a stretch for me, so once again bear with me.

So! That's that!

I'm so bored XD

There is nothing I can do! Other than this! And Stumble.

I should really evaluate my life, but I'm one of those people that thinks immensely about things that are important to other people. I want to say the perfect thing, which is not always the best thing, I also plan my conversations ahead, so I have an outline of what I will say.

Aha, I have a lot to think about.