Take Me Under

So my life since I've last posted. A few interesting things, not too bad.

Starting with this week, because last week was pretty lame.

Monday, was TORTURE! I was so happy to be privileged to learn from Mr. Ferrito, but I was tired, and it was boring. I learned a lot that I could have figured out, but he was there to make it clear. It was like a 7:30 a.m. - 4:00/30 thing with an hour for lunch, which we ate there. I skipped class that entire day :D I was FREE from San Jac

Tuesday, pretty much the same, I was super dead but I felt that grew so much, it felt like weeks I had learned all of that and gained all that wisdom and knowledge. I still can't believe it was only 6 days ago I learned all of the things I'm applying now, well minus one, but I'll explain that later this post.

Wednesday, Statistics! And I took the car all by myself! I was BEYOND excited! Then I left early to go to Band at 11:40, I was late, but I sped as much as I could with out getting caught! rofl! It was good! I was so nervous! It's crazy! Now, if you are band people in my section at my school reading this, you really shouldn't be, because yeah, you'll think less of me and my authority, you may not consciencly but, you wil sub-consciencely. So yeah, if I were you I wouldn't read anything band related from here on out, if not it will get A LOT harder on you when you have to run for me.

Thursday! I had to go pick up a friend in my section in Pine Trails, or otherwise known as Crime Tails, it went good, I WAS going to go to San Jac, but Nah, I would miss most of class anyways, it turns out the teacher wasn't there any ways so it was all good! So I picked her up no problem! Leaving CT was teh hard part XD I ran a stop sign I swear I didn't see until I couldn't stop anymore! It was a good thing no cars were near us! So, I got pulled over XD Like I said Crime Trails, so cops run that place, and I was let off with a warning Phew! I was the nicest most naive smart person I could manage, I did everything right! I was so HAPPY and nervous! lol. Then band! That went well, then I went home, no problem.

Friday, was nothing THAT special, I didn;t have the car, not because my mother knew about me getting stopped! Which she doesn't so shhhh.... but she had errands. Band was okay, a little down. What DID bother me was Florine! I swear that girl is going to get slapped! She is the worst leader right now. "Oh I don't have to look happy all the time, I can look gloomy (attitude attitude attitude) I'm not naturally happy person, sorry (attitude) I can't be happy all the time I'm tired, I'm always tired, blah blah blah" Include like 15 rolling of th eeyes in that one sentence and yeah. I was going to slap a hoe. I probably wouldn't mind it as much if she acted like a leader! We went through 16 hours learning how to be a leader, and she is not applying ANYTHING! I tell her how to do something, and we all agreed to accept everything the other says in front of the members, and what does Florine do when I suggest say, or tell her something, she ROLLS HER GOD DAMNED EYES! EVERY DAMNED TIME! This bitch is about to not be found. I'm trying to be happy. (Pretend I'm talking about Saturday) I tell her, I have had a shit day the day before and I have a million things to worry about, but I put the section and band before my issues because I want us to be great, but she says she can't always be happy. And anyone who knows Florine knows she can be a bitch and about every other sentence she'll get all offended and close up and get a tone in her voice that makes her herself think she has all the reason in the world. I swear chick is not going to make it because Thulium can't stand it either and she has issues right now too but she is putting the band before her problems because she loves the band too much. I don't understand why the Directors put Florine in charge, she is probably the least qualified to be a leader out of the 4 people who auditioned for it. Thulium was in Stu-co, I have helped people learn how to march and I have really learned how to apply the thing Ferrito told us in the past, Steph showed leaderhsip trying out for Drum Major and in class, Florine... I can't think of one thing, she hasn't done a damned thing. Okay, so that's my spiel. I'm always going to feel like that, I'll try not to step on her toes, but if she doesn't step up, I'll be happy to do it until she learns,

I dunno, it's a really hard ordeal. I honestly don't know what to do, but I have to figure it out soon.

On the bright side! I think all the fish like me! I have tried to be very nice to them, so they like and respect me because I care about them. I think it's going well. They also like Thulium! Florine, I'm not very sure, she's a very awkward person that doesn't do well with strange and unknown. Idk. Down side! The new used air conditioner is broken! And I once again don't have A/C, it sucks! But I have school all next week! Then one at home, I'm planning on going out often! lol. I want a vacation and some fun -.- I've done too much school to not have one.

Sometimes I wonder if I could just quit band and open up so much time for me to do other things! But then I remember that all my friends are in band, and their schedule would be my schedule, and the best way to develop my musical skills along with my theory skills is to be in band, and maybe marching band will bring my grades down by like 2 points, but my senior year grades don't matter to colleges anyways, my fate is sealed, and I can no longer effect anything. The only thing that matters to me now is passing my AP exams doing kick ass at region, pulling off my incredible solo, do am awesome ensemble and learn all that I can. I also want to get all 4 and a 5 on my Theory test, because if I get anything less I will be BEYOND pissed, like, I couldn't live with myself pissed. Heh, I guess that's how you know that's what I want to with my life. It would be exactly the same if I had room for Chemistry. Well there you go. I am 100% sure I want to be a composer for sure. I want to do things with music and expand my knowledge.

Wow. So yeah.

I kind of sort of got Technetium angry at me on Thursday or Wednesday, I'm not really sure what day. But it was basically because I was frustrated and she is quitting band, and you know I love band. And I was so happy I had saved 2 people from quitting band, her and some fish in my section, and I was like yes! I feel accomplished! And then she just up and quits, and it's like. What the heck, how can you just do that? How is it even possible for you to change your mind like that. I pretty much felt like a failure. Pretty much it was like I want everyone to stay in band and feel the love for it. And Technetium talked about all these things she was going going to accomplish this upcoming year in band and now she just threw it out the window. Idk, so I just threw it out there, that she took the easy way out because it is possible to be in band an get good grades I mean the Trumpet Section leader is in the top ten. not percent I mean he's actually in the top ten people in our grade. I mean it is possible if you want good grades, it is possible, and then it's not like grades really matter at all this year, other then for rank, they really don't matter. But what ever. I haven;t exactly apologized, mostly because I don't know what to apologize for. Should it be because I said things that are actually true? I guess I hit a nerve when I said, "good luck forgetting band" and then "you took the easy way out" I guess. I mean I understand why she would be angry, but ugh. Idk, I am the perfect person to avoid problems. I was determined to think about it today, but even when I took a shower I found things to distract me from what I should do.

I really want to actually think about it, but ugh, I really suck at apologizing. No lie, not as bad as Thorium, but I really suck at it. Especially when I'm not 100% percent. Idk. I have Calculus tomorrow, so I'll be distracted enough to think about it. Since I honestly hate math lol.

Today, the Air broke, I'm pretty sure it works to some extent, they just don't want to turn it on. So I am going to slowly die on the inside this month and possibly next month! Why? Because we are cheap? Nah, it's because we don't have any money to get a new one, they spent all of out savings and stuff on the new A/C and now that's broken, and my father isn't working next week apparently his area in the factory doesn't have any work this week. So no money going to come in. Pretty much we are living on the whim that we'll some how get some money. Let's see how that works out. Really sucks when you are pretty much poor in this country. Especially in a recession, when people really don't want to higher uneducated old mexicans. Ah, this sucks, lol.

That's my report an the week! I have other posts that I wrote on some word documents, but I'm to lazy to transfer them over here. So yup! Wish me luck! hahahaha