Instant Messege

Have I ever said I hate people? Because I REALLY HATE PEOPLE!!! So yesterday was a half day right? I was excited for the break, until I remembered I had flute lessons. So then I got aggravated, even more than that it was the fact the schedule was so jacked. It was annoying, but I got invited to go eat at Johnny Carino's. That made it better. Only a little. I went with Green and 3 others. It was okay. But the people there were bastards. The hostess thought we were hoodlums, and that 5 girls would be bad. We waited 40-50 minutes to get seated while we watched about 30 people get seated before us. We got the worst seat in the house and we found out that the waitresses didn't want to deal with us. We were all pissed, considering we were almost all in the top 5%, it was ridiculous. We were so insulted it was ridiculous. It just goes to show that 90% percent of schools give the other 10% a bad name. And that they will never consider us adults until we are out of college. I hate it. Adults suck.

Ruined my day for sure.

So me and Soubi haven't reconciled yet. I'm not trying. I love the kid, but man, just thinking about this week gives me a headache. I really couldn't deal with it right now. Because arguments that we have really stick with me. Stupid kid. I hate it. Blah, now I remember why I wanted to distance myself from people and emotions. Oh well, the damage has been done.

I can't talk to Spork anymore. We aren't in the same class anymore. I should be glad, but I can't help but be disappointed. And I knew it, I just knew her schedule would finally change, and that it would end our short lived moment.

It's hilarious, it totally sounds like we broke up lol, at least that's what Donk said. But I think she understood to some extent with the little information I gave her pertaining to the situation. I dunno, it's just a great feeling of regret that I have. It makes me really sad in reality. But blah, fake smiles and fake emotions are the best in times like this, Spork can't even do that anymore...

Today was just sucky. It was just a long day. I just want to sleep really. I think I need sleep. Three day weekend is coming up though! And I'm missing almost all my classes tomorrow and giving blood. lol

So my life is boring I swear! There is generally nothing that happens with me when me and Soubi are in a fight(which happens often as you will soon see). It's bothersome my my parents are douches who never let me go out, and I can't sneak out because I couldn't do that to them.

My grades aren't as bad as I thought them to be, well, the letter is but my GPA and rank aren't anywhere near what I though they would be. 4.26 and 41. I was like YES!

Soubi has looked horrible these past few days. He's not even trying to hide it. He says he's tired, but I sincerely doubt it. I know something up and I feel horrible that I don't ask because I'm putting my mental state before his. My head won't stay up, so I'm laying on the floor now, because man, I've felt like this all day, but I got home at 5.

College is scaring the shit out of me. I don't think I'm going to do good enough to get into a good school. I hate

Lol, yeah. I fell asleep writing this, my mom woke me up and told me to get in bed to sleep there, so I posted this and slept. XD

I'll write the end of this in my phone, and then write it when I get back from school (when I've lost a pint of blood )