So yeah, about college, it sincerely scares the crap put of me. I mean, am I going to get into a good college? Am I even going to get accepted to my choice college? And if I do, will I be able to pay for it? Am I going to be stuck in state in a 2nd rate school? I really want to get away from people who know me. I really just want to be me. Not the me everyone believes me to be. It's crazy not even Soubi knows me completely, considering I'm keeping my crazy out of the conversations. Speaking of Soubi, me and Soubi haven't spoken in forever. Why? Because he was being douchy on that one day, and he got on my nerves and now he's mad at me. He's been all depressed looking, I care, but I'm relieved he's not trying to talk to me, because I wouldn't be able to handle it. He is a sincere hand full. I don't know how Shine handles it. My other friends never deal with it and just ignore him. They ask me, like I would know. I would say it's because we are in a fight, but that would be selfish, because I'm sure there is other reasons like Shine.
People say I'm really unselfish for the things I will care about in the future. If only they knew my real intentions when I'm cut loose from my reins. 1 1/2 years left! Yay! Hm... I never write in a away that sounds deep on here. Next post I'll try. I mean I can, but this is my easy going blog. You know what I miss seeing? Miss Nicole's truck! I love that thing I want to have a truck like that! Rawr!
So yeah, that's what I wrote this morning, I just decided to not post it XD
Shine=Twin?
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