So Violento So Macabro

Today, SUCKED! Not really, just some parts of it. So okay start to the day, I sat in English just bored, because I had already looked up the dialog she wanted us to decipher. We screwed it up though, so it wouldn't seem obvious, but the black people suck at being sneaky, they made it obvious, along with their horrible understanding of the English language. I'm not racist, I just don't like ignorant people, and it just happens that the ignorant people in my group are black, and tend to be the black people who make it REALLY obvious that they are ignorant. I like black people, I have black friends! Heck. Grey is black! I'd say African american, but those are the people who have actually suffered directly from things like Jim Crow laws or slavery or segregation or both, at least in my book, everyone else is American who just happen to be brown, but latinos are brown, and diluted black is what black people are, so black is just shorter, so what ever. It's like crayons, I call the box crayons, and when I refer to one crayon I say 'one crayon', and to specify which one I am talking about I say the color. So what ever, I can't be bother to explain more.

So yeah, Theory was blah. Math was okay. Spork talked to me today and finally told me the real reason. I now I just have to say, I really don't know what to tell her. I knew her excuses were just that, excuses, I just gave her the courtesy of pretending to believe her and letting her tell me instead of pressuring her to tell me. I am really pissed at that one person, and I'm so glad I don't talk to him. She told me that she can never fool Lin or me. And she can't, I've known her way too long and I know how she really is, her real personality, and it makes me so angry! I want her to be HER again! She deserves that! But I don't know what to tell her! FUCK! It's like my heart just wants to find the answer we're both desperately looking for. And for 2 years! All the life she has missed. DAMN! I knew I shouldn't have let her go so easily! SHIT! I feel really bad.

Neeb's class was boring and honestly I kept thinking of Spork's problem and Soubi who FINALLY got his schedule changed. About damned time! We have Physics together, so much for care free environment, he hates several people in that class. Ha! Soubi and I were having a 'love' fight last night. He kept saying he loved me more, and I told him I loved him more. In his head he won, but I know I do XD We are weird friends. Hm... what else. Medical Terminology (which even SOUNDS boring) was REALLY boring, we literally do nothing, and that bitch wants me to do flashcards for her unimportant class. I'm sure she thinks I care since I'm always writing, but yeah, I'm doing my Theory homework. I have no interest in the medical field. Lunch was chaos, we had 11 people sitting at our table today. It was quiet because there were a lot of different people there, I knew then all, it was just like, "Who should I talk to?" Even Fox said that it was quiet. Band was... band boring as heck man. At sectionals today we had like 5 minutes of playing our third octave f#-c, which is like a bajillion ledger lines above the staff. That made me super light headed. I almost fell like twice.

Speaking of light headed, I'm saving three lives on Friday! Yay, giving blood!!! And I have the genetics lecture I still have to buy a ticket for it. I love giving blood, gives me the feeling that I'm not completely useless.

I haven't talked much to Soubi, dunno, I think he's mad at me. I don't know, that kid is blah. I guess I'm blah too, but that's because I feel blah, so I'm assuming Blah is a good way to describe me at this point.

Blah I wanna tell Soubi about Spork because I'm honestly stumped, but I really don't want to break Spork's new found trust in me. BLAH and OTHER OBSCENITIES!!!!!!!! I feel like just running for hours or like having a massive work out right now just to get my mind off of it. Blah, I'm off to write in my other blog, this whole ranting with out really saying anything is getting aggravating.