I Never Told You What I Do For A Living

Okay so I promised to elaborate things. So yeah, things have dramatically changed between me and Grey. We are on the same terms, well almost the same. But I'm getting ahead of myself, I shall now elaborate on the previous post.

Soubi is my best friend ever, I can literally tell him everything, except maybe a few things. But that's by choice, not because I can't.

Grey is my other best friend, she is effin awesome.

Yuki is a good friend very hyper, her name is subject to change, I had another one, but I forgot what it was already.

Green is another good friend who is like my academic and band friend.

Spork is my old best friend and she remains a good friend even if we don't talk often.

Fox is my other good friend, Love that chick.

Bear is my friend and you should know her as the Hugger, because she enjoys to hug me... a lot.

Donk is my mixed friend is is crazy but I love her, she's cool.

Geisha- crack head, but I love her she is crazy as you will see in the future

Bram- pretty awesome chick. You'll hear about her every once in a while

Gaz- Now she is not as crazy as Geisha, but she's getting there.

Once I find a name for everyone I'l dedicate a post to it, as a key for you AND me.

So I decided to let you learn about who I am by what I post and not by me just telling me, because you may have another opinion of me than my own.

So the other day was pretty interesting with a lot of things happening.

Soubi said I was acting weird. And maybe I was I'm not sure, but he was talking in public about things that I would really prefer stay between me and him. Well, I mean just not say as loud as he said. But like idk. It's like I like the talks we have even in front of people, but I dunno, it just makes me paranoid. I mean I don't really lie to people I just don't tell them things if they don't ask. It bothered me the way he said it, or referred to it I guess. I'm not sure, I told him, and he was like okay, we'll just talk like that in IM and text or what ever. BLAH. Not exactly what I wanted but juts BLAH.

Yuki, has just had a shitty week, I really don't talk to her in depth because she somehow always catches me in a bad time. But I've heard and seen her be unhappy, and even not sit with us at lunch. I guess she has a bunch of things going on.

Grey ignored and didn't talk to me at all, I don't blame her, but I was just speaking my mind. Oh well, I'm giving her space and she can talk to me when ever she is ready.

Green invited me to play in a trio with her and Grey. And I was like yeah (in my head: oh great), I told her as long as Grey was cool with it, I'm in. But this should be fun, considering we aren't exactly talking. Green was surprised when I told her but eh, what ev. it's between me and Grey.

I talked to Spork she's in my math class, and sits next to me, so we talk, considering we are learing SOH CAH TOA (Some Other Hippie - Caught Another Hippie - Trippin On Acid) which I learned several SEVERAL years ago. So we talk, and I have my next class with her, but her boyfriend is in there, and you know what that means. No talkie to ANY one. Her plan has worked that she told me about last year in Robo's class. Good for her. I'm happy for her. But Spork is my good friend and somehow knows how to make me feel better when I'm down

I totally sucked it up in Theory the other day, and man did I feel like shit, I really felt like crying, it was horrible. I made it out, but Soubi was being a cocky arse as usual when he answers a few questions right. And no, he wasn't just happy for himself, he was being cocky. I just wanted to get away from him at that time, he walks with some sophomore, so I got away from him. I arrived to math class in a pretty shitty mood, and Spork heard me tell Bear that I was in a really not good mood as she hung on to my backpack. I told her about it, and she heled me through teh situation, so she cheered me up, I am still sad about me remembering slowly but I have two bastards looking upon my every mistake and correcting me. Really what got me the most was that my teacher said "Oh, How the Mighty have fallen..." he said it in a joking manner but it still hurt a lot, I controlled my face/ expression/ watery eyes as much as I could, but I'm sure it looked like my world had just shattered around me.

I put the little chibi Soubi gave me and Donk along time ago, on my phone. It symbolizes something, but I don't know what exactly yet. Friendship, something deeper than that, but that's just my crazy symbolizism.

Yeah this is today's events

So I can say it was FUCKING COLD TODAY! 25F this morning, ridiculous it was 55 last night! like 24 hours ago. Freaking crazy.

So yeah, I need a new group of friends, I may just play on the edge of groups like I've been doing, since college is coming near, it'll be hard enough to leave Soubi, Grey, Fox, and all of them, I'm starting a new life after high school anyways, I can make friends there.

Theory was another wreck, I can do the complicated things, just not the simple things, which I think is weird but idk. I hate it, I'm pretty sure I was his top student who didn't know anything about theory. I'm sure I got the highest score on the final exam, which was too low for me, a 97, I should have made perfect. I'm angry.

My lips are so chapped they keep cracking I can't lick my lips to keep them hydrated, because they crack. I hate it! My hair is straightening out, it's that cold.

Grey and me started talking again as if nothing ever happen. We are doing the trio. So yeah

Soubi and I had plans tomorrow, but his mommy was being a bitch so he had to cancel! LAME! We were going to go job hunting and then go watch Avatar in 3D And you haven't heard my rant, but on my private blog I went CRAZY over it! Best movie I've seen EVER!!! AH!!!!

I talked to a few friends, Geisha, Gaz, and Bram today. Pretty cool.

I had an awesome conversation with Spork, we laughed, and learned. She always looks so sad, but I think it's an act, but I feel her sadness, it bounces off my barrier, but I feel it. I don't know, I think something is up, but I don't know what. It really bothers me, but it's not under my jurisdiction anymore. She prefers others to me now. But, what ever, I'll step in when needed.

I started playing There today, man, I really want to stay neutral between the Club X people and Party People. But I work for the former and my prior employer are the Party People. I enjoy the Party People, they are just a lot like the Guilded Age. Shiny on the outside and corrupt and problematic on the inside, from what I hear. I will try to keep a medium between the two. But damn, this sucks. I hate it but blah, Mom is on PP, Rose(BFF) is on Club X. BLAH! I'll figure it out. I've just worked on the avoiding both. lol. Mom is trying to steer me back to PP, but idk if she knows I work at Club X now. AH! Oh well.

Medical Terminology is still a useless class, I don't care what any one says. I want NOTHING to do with medicine, it doesn't catch my attention in the least bit. And yet I'm stuck taking the class. It's a bother.

That's all for now I think. It's late, but I could stay up another 3 hours. Crazy, aye?

It's planned to be freezing the rest of the weekend, so I'm not walking outside... at all... unless DEATHLY important.