Rabbit

Okay. Now, I've seen this trend in my life since maybe 7th more likely 8th grade, I seem to get so unbelievably depressed around March and April every year since 2007 or 2006. 4 years now. And sure enough, I became insanely depressed around the ides of march, maybe a bit earlier.

The thing about this is, I don't know how to not be depressed around this time. Everything can be going great(like this year) and I just can't anymore in March/April.

I lose all hope in everything and there is no point in anything. Last year was a bit better considering I was dying due to the friendship between me and Gil. That's odd, but it was.

Now this year things were great, but I'm so insanely depressed.

Every single stereotypical symptom.

I am tired
I have had suicidal thoughts
I have wanted to self injure
I am irritable(More than usual)
Felling like I'm worthless
Having all those little voices coming back and telling me that everything is my fault and that I don't deserve to live because of all of my mistakes, character traits, negative personality attributes,, and all of my guilts through out life all at once.
Trouble concentrating
And loss in my interests

Tragic really.


But anyways!

My mind is like out there. It wants things it can't have. UGH.

I'm ALMOST done with Pokemon black I'm a little over 70% done, I'm assuming.



Now, every year since Calculus AB and BC has existed at my school with my Calculus teacher, there has been a shirt.

Every year has had a shirt or hoodie(if you are BC)

This year's was made by my friend Taylor. My calculus teacher is a huge fan of The Beatles! So Taylor decided to make the design of Abbey Road's Cover and replaced the pictures of the faces of the beatles with different pictures of my teacher's face.

IT IS AWESOME!

And I will always wear it because it's awesome.

Now... I wish I had happier news but I have none sorry.

Bye!