SPRING BREAK FTW

Okay, so I haven't done anything with my spring break yet, I'm just trying to relax and clean my room as of now.

How did it start off yesterday?

I woke up from a bad dream. Yup, and this is where I proceed to tell you what I can remember considering it was yesterday!

So! I had just had this like murdering dream, I played Team Fortress 2 for the first time in months and yeah...

It was like a movie thing where we ran from the cops or whatever. It was pretty epic from what I can still see.

So, it switched from that dream to a bus. So it was a field trip thing on like a school bus, but with random people.

So I sat down, and I was hoping for something. You know that feeling where you can feel something is about to happen, good or bad, but something is about to happen and you hope for something good? Well that's the complex feeling I was experiencing.

And then this girl walked on, a small thing. She was a soft butch, her style was more gangster like, it totally worked. I was instantly attracted to her. I say small, but she was like 5' 3" ish skinny but toned. You could tell she was someone you didn't want to mess with. I some how knew it was a complete act and my goal was to break it to get to her.

She sat behind me, and I acted all cool as I contemplated a plan as I tried to talk to her, she was putting up a nice front, but I kept at it non-relentingly.

You could tell she was getting annoyed at my persistence but I didn't care. I knew I could be good for her so I kept at it. We arrived at our destination and she was gone, I lost her for a little while, but I looked. I looked for her and I finally found her with her guard down. Where we were was basically like what I would imagine the theater district in Houston looks like. I basically followed her to the point she knew I was following her, but I wasn't trying to talk to her. I dunno, it worked. It's like I cared where you are and what you're doing but I'm not going to push my position to ruin your time.

So the trip is done and I'm on the bus, I get on before her. I'm a bit tired and close to giving up because I didn't think I was getting anywhere. When we were going to our field trip destination, she gave me nickname to try and shake me off, I don't exactly remember, it was like huge giant something. I dunno, it was a bit funny.

So she gets on the bus and I'm resolved that she doesn't care, she sits down next to me. I couldn't really believe it, I was basically done. So we talk, now, this is where things get bad. I am very attracted to her blah blah blah, but I was craving for a kiss, and I was getting really impatient. We are talking and I'm trying to judge when to go in for a kiss. And I kept not getting that vibe from her. So I was getting anxious, it was ridiculous really.

Now, there was this guy in the back that I knew liked me and I would be able to probably walk over there and kiss him.

At this point I kept turning around to look at him, he was still sitting back there alone and at a point the girl noticed. She became disheartened at my growing unease, she decided she needed to let me go. She said something along the lines of not enjoying kissing girls or it just didn't feel the same anymore which was my cue to be able to go, she moved to her seat behind me again and I went to the guy.

After that it skipped a few scenes and there I was kissing that guys, then I turn and see the girl.

In the dream I instantly regretted what I did. But I was still there with the guy. The cherry on top this horrible display, I didn't remember if the guy(who I know in real life, though I don't like him at all) was still with his girlfriend. I didn't think about it until like the very end of the dream. "When did they break up?"

I woke up like... what the fuck.

I couldn't believe I did that. I would never do that to anyone. I woke up feeling like the biggest jack ass on the fucking face of the earth. Even in my dreams how the fuck could I do that? Just writing this made me feel so fucking horrible. It wasn't real life, but it's still bad. I can't believe I did that, I am completely incredulous.

I would never pick someone for purely sexual reasons, I would go with the one I liked and felt a connection with. I don't believe I would ever do anything like that. No, I know I would never do that. It's not something just wow.

I'm pretty sure it was symbolism for something else, but man, why did it have to be that? That's just fucked up.

Now for the rest of the week? Going to the doctor, the dentist, and the optometrist.

Getting my Tetanus shot and my Bacterial meningitis shot. I'm super scared for the one that's supposed to hurt like hell.

Probably the worst dream I've ever had for sure.