Just my luck.

We all have heard my Disney story.

The one were I go to Disney with band and after a series of events I end up hanging out with some new kids and they end up accepting me and one of them turns out to have a crush on me and is just completely crushing on me the entire time.

Now the part I doubt I've told you guys is that I also grew extremely find of her. I completely repressed anything I felt and when I was finally starting to warm up to the idea of me actually maybe having feelings towards a girl we somehow grew apart. Oh we grew apart because her group of friends started crumbling and my friends grew stronger after the series of events.

So, yeah. After analyzing it now that I'm not afraid of actually liking a girl and I actually welcome the idea, I have come to realize I actually did start liking her. And you know it was nice feeling wanted by someone who I'm assuming liked me for purely physical reason and she then liked my personality. But you know she was scared about what she felt because she was devout Catholic and everything she was taught was against what she felt. It probably would have been a what happens at Disney stays at Disney.

And come on I was a stupid freshman, commitment meant absolutely nothing. I wasn't sensitive in the least.

Now that I look back, I would totally have been the more manly of the two of us. I was basically there for her and I did very stereotypical things that a man would do in a stereotypical relationship.

You know, it's known as good mannerisms and not being a bitch, but you know, I thought I'd be specific to some extent.

Man. That would have been a fun relationship if I weren't a bitch and repressing of the things I felt, and if she weren't afraid of God and what she felt. It would have been fun.

Do I have to go back to Disney to find a potential relationship like that again? Is it like a every 4 years type thing? It's coming up on 4 years this March. Maybe? One can only hope right?

It's just so frustrating being single.

It's just been a fucking long time. Ugh. I just want what could be a cute relationship.

I'm great now, I've learned, I know what not to do now, I've learned how to treat someone right.

Only I would get a bunch of relationships when I was a bitch and an asshole and not when I can actually love and respect someone.

Just my luck.