2 days

I'm about 2 seconds away from shooting Tara in the face. I don't know how people act up in the north, but down where I'm from we don't fucking assume shit. So don't go assuming I'm going to go eat dinner with you. Why can't I just yell at her? Because all my classes with her of course, and if I ever need something she's the one I have to go to. I hate her with a passion. Sometimes she's okay, but she talks about her life 24/7 could give less of a shit about your life and she will try and get her way and be annoying about it. It is all about her own prerogative. She BITCHES at her parents, she insults them. She plain disrespects them. I've met her mom, she's cool and means the best. Tara is a cold hearted bitch. I feel bad saying that, but I spend the most time with her and that's who she is. I wish I didn't have to know her. I do wish she would transfer schools. There are regular character traits that I don't care for that she has, but I could deal with those if it weren't for her being such an asshole all the time. I'm like so done. I'm glad I have fall break to myself next week. She wanted to take me to her home, but she's too much of a bitch. I couldn't live with her 24/7. At least here it's on my own terms. Anyways! On another note, Julianne, the girls that I had the crush on. I'm working on it. It's tough. She sends more mixed signals than the bible. Sometimes I think I'm bringing her over to the side with cookies, but then she takes a very straight tone. Man, it's really hard work. Because she's a bit fragile now, she had this crush on this guy, who is a man whore, she didn't know. She made out with him. Which she doesn't do. And then he moved on to fuck several other girls. Hard hit on her. It hurts a bit. I'm trying REALLY hard not to like actually fall for her. I want it to stay at crush so if she doesn't find the ways of the female species to be amazing, it doesn't hurt me too much. If I have to go that far I will, but right now, things are good at crush level. Subtly is my forte though. So I can so easily do so many things. Just little by little. Like encroaching on her personal space. I'm a pro. Considering I took advantage of Ang. because she loved to hug me. I learned fast. And I am a huge pro now. I'm writing this over a span of like 2 days so my emotions have changed. I had a fun day.