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So today was decent. The beginning sucked though. I had to go visit that idiot. Man, she just spews b.s. every where. I can barely contain my comments when she's talking. I hate it, but after two hours we FINALLY left I was texting Unununium(I realize how fake that element sounds, but it actually exists) the entire time, but the signal in that apartment SUCKS!

So after we left that hell hole, we went to go visit my not really uncle, and my aunt and my cousin (K), and her boyfriend/soon to be fiance. We took her nephews to this really nice park where her dad(my uncle) works, it was awesome, it had a bunch of white middle class people there. There was even this lady who was speaking french to her three kids! It was amazing! She had the most amazing eyes too! And this little girl came up to me, as I was talking to K, and started talking about my nails and we discussed their colors, she later just walked away with out even a good bye. Adorable white toddler though.

So, me and K talked about EVERYTHING. We talked about her unborn child, birth control, pregnancy scares, the baby's future names (whos initials will either be, RIG or NIG. I do like both because backwards they are, GIR(from invader zim) and GIN(a awesome alcohol and card game)) Ruben Isaiah [insert last name here] or Nathan/ial Isaiah [insert last name here], it's awesome. I have told her she will need to spam my phone the moment that baby is born. I will love it to DEATH, lol. K and I also discussed what has been going on with me and bastard. It was very refreshing to get a different perspective on it. She is a real down to earth, kinda ghetto, real person. So, she gave me a variety of options, but she told me if I really wanted to keep the friendship going I needed to talk to him, now I know Technetium is going to chew my ass out, but I'm thinking about it. I know I just posted a rant last night about it, but I really really do miss him, it's pathetic really, but it's like having a part of you that had just become accustomed to trusting a certain person you would give your life for, and having it ruthlessly ripped out of you. I was near tears talking to her about it actually, which is INCREDIBLY insane, because I never cry about anything, but my eyes were beginning to tear up and my voice began to shake, but I kept through it with out shedding a tear, mostly because my parents and her parents and her two nephews were present in the room. It was just shit. She could tell that I was sincere about what I was saying, and gave me, what I think, is great advice. I'm thinking about it, but I won't lie, I'm scared. Mostly because it was a bloody fight, and I know that I said that if he couldn't take it, to just stop being friends. It was a brutal fight, I hated it, and so much shit was going on, but I won't tell him that part. I'm asking Tungsten tomorrow, how much he hates me, and depending on her answer, I'll then proceed to compose a text or email, or offline message for him to read because I don't think I could do it in person, really. She encouraged me to do it in person, but I really don't think I could take it, I'm almost 100% sure I would pretty much break down, lol. Technetium is going to kill me XD

So yeah, we talked for hours, literally. We haven't talked in forever so that explains it.

Man, typing a long message on my blackberry keyboard and then switching back to this notebook keyboard, then back to the blackberry is so disorienting! Rofl. Mad, man. lol

Bloody insane! XD

Now my mind is reeling back to WHAP, wow, so much info, and it's mixing into my APUSH, now that is bloody insane.

So I'm kind of over the O.C., I just wanted to see when Alex (Olivia Wilde) comes in, but that is in the second season, and I still have like 20 epsiodes until then.

Happiness is a warm gun baby

Happiness is a warm gun mama

Happiness is a woah oh

Don't you know that happiness is war, yes it is

Gun.......