O.C.

I always feel so sad for people who are maybe 10 or 11 years old and they find the need to cut. And then they continue attempting to get that same high, and eventually just cutting harder and harder, and they aren't even in high school yet. I mean, what the hell. I mean I understand that life is shit, but to start in elementary or 6th grade? That's just intense. I always fell so sad for them , whenever I read their stories on the shout out boards. It makes me incredibly sad when I read about people starting to develop an eating disorder, in elementary school! I mean what fucked up parent would tell their child who is at a normal weight in elementary school they are fat? I mean what the fuck?! I've read so many biographies about people who have dealt with an eating disorder their whole lives because their parents where self-contempt idiots that told them they were fat and ugly. I mean, seriously what the hell? Kids absorb everything we say! If adults struggle with the balance of good and bad, how the hell do you think a child will decide what's good and what's bad? Adults suck. Swear man, they are such a drag.

So, yeah, school is such a drag, I just want to go to college already and study what I love. My top schools? MIT, Columbia University, NYU, Sarah Lawrence College, and somewhere else not including UTA, which is my back up school if all else fails.

Roar. So yeah i took one of those stupid online self test thingy's and once again it told me I was severely depressed. Amazing what they can figure out with 5 choices and 10 questions. Totally lame.

I'm watching the O.C. now. My new t.v. series addiction. Mostly because Olivia Wilde appears somewhere around season 3 or 4 I'm guessing, not the first, that's for sure. If not, I wouldn't be dedicating my time to watching the whole series, but it would not make ANY sense if I watched it in the middle. I did watch The O.C. occasionally when I was younger, but it didn't catch my attention, it was just like 90210, or degrassi, it was there, but t.v. dramas were not my thing when I was 10. Funny thing, though, was that I understood the underlying message just not the subliminal message (A.K.A. the sexual one).

Well, I think that's all. Oh, I STILL HAVEN'T FOUND DIVINE COMEDY!

I'm beyond tired, I'm really having to put a lot of thought as to what I'm writing so if these last couple of paragraphs sound a little off, it's because I feel feverish and I'm a little more than half conscience.