Warning: This is going to be a RANT!!!

If you neglected to read the title of this post, it's just telling you that this post is going to be a rant. So, yesterday was fun! I hung out with some of my best friends and we caught up and stuff it was great! However, catching up also meant catching up with events that have happened to our friends. Now. My friend A told me earlier this year that she was engaged and going to get married. Now, you know people are usually happy and excited when that happens. Unless you're all jealous and bitter about single, which I'm not, so I should be happy. I wasn't. The opposite I was pissed. I was pissed at her for being such an idiot! I should have won an academy award because I acted happy and excited and all that shit. But no. She is a fucking idiot. She's been going through some tough shit. However, she is also a huge fucking drama queen. I hate to say it but it's true. I love the girl she is a good friend of mine, not super close because I had a crush on her a long ass time ago so I never let myself get close to her. Anyways. She is getting married. Why I'm pissed? The guy she is marrying is a piece of shit pussy ass motherfucker. That sounds harsh and I'm not that entitled, but I've seen what's happened. I'm trying to stay calm as I write this but I'm so angry. I don't want it to happen. I don't. It's going to be bad. "A" is attracted to controlling assholes. She cries all the time and he is so controlling. So fucking controlling. He needs to know everything she does and needs to approve of everything including what she can wear. Which reminds me of someone else. So, that probably is going to piss me off even more now. Oh god. I don't even. Words don't describe my pissyness. I'm watching Dodger from dexteritybonus or presshearttocontinue to level out my pissyness with her exuberant adorable happiness. Okay, I took a small happy break. I'm back now. So, for her to not get out of this relationship, she got out of her last relationship with a controlling asshole who broke her, because she doesn't believe in her own self worth (more on that in a second) who she was with for 3-4 years. New guy, told her he liked her while she was still with her now ex. Now, she was gaining self worth and wanting to break up with him for good, because they were on and off for a long time, but her ex was one of those, "oh no baby, I will change, I'll be better" you know, all that bull. So, the guy does that and he is in a relationship with this other girl and he broke up with her and then "A" broke up with her now ex and went out with new guy less than a week after getting out of a 3-4 year long relationship. She had absolutely NO time to evaluate herself and accept herself and love herself. NO TIME TO DO ALL THE STUFF THAT WOULD STOP HER FROM AILFAWFPG;IAVFOIGFewifawefegEFI3ewfvgiEQFOIUweba3qw0 uyvn3CDSPOUBLWGWHIPGvevvavkhaef'csfo;ufg:Kvgapi;ae Okay... I'm trying to calm my breathing down so I don't get tooo hot headed. In case you didn't know regulating your breath when you're feeling angry calms down your pulse and subsequently your blood flow rate calming down the blood rushing to make you angry. Anyways, a little calmer... still watching Dodger, she is the perfect calm person, also jenna anne's new Gay Song. Makes you happy. It was all I could do to not just destroy this laptop from just smashing. Stupid shit, seriously. So I guarantee you that she thinks that no one will ever love her like assholes do because she doesn't think she's pretty enough, or thin enough, or worth anything because she cries a lot and makes thinks way more dramatic and is always complaining or bitching about something. She just stacks bad thing after bad thing after bad thing upon herself no matter how small things are. She has SO many good attributes. I could list them all and I assure you they would be way longer than anything negative that would be said about her. So much drama has happened and it's terrible, so she has clung and the guy has been there. AND WHY DO PEOPLE CONTROLLLLL!!!!! WHAT TELLS THEM IT IS OKAY TO DO THAT SHIT! WHAT THE FUCK?! I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY PEOPLE WOULD DO IT?! I JUST WANT TO PUNCH THEM ALL INTO A BLOODY FUCKING PULP WHAT THE FUCK! AWEGFR PAWIJMGSODINUBTGDSUTZMHFJGV9[ EORCDINJFER0V52C ESR4FD1V5ER34D.F' IHYVECBH3EW0YF6Y0BRECP09R28 TCBHVWIFDSHJNWERKFHMASW BFCOAEO8YAG[O8PFP97UHFGPUGBFOYAIWEFBGPAIYWHFB UVAECNUSIDYFYHGERUYFDCBNRAEFIBTGNE IUSKFG PO.LIUFGRE BNLFKYBGEF NIFLWP9RFOTGE FOWEPBUYF CPEUIBYFI3E CBUBCEDSNUFOV M Ugh... I'm sorry. So, needless to say I'm not happy. I don't... No one does. I don't know if anyone has said anything about it. I don't approve and I don't want to go to the fucking wedding. I will because she's going to try and plan it around the college schedules. I will. But it's like watching a Kardashian marriage. It'll crumble immediately and she will just end up not happy. Miserable. I'm UGH Like, if she were truly happy with him I would be okay with the marriage. Oh they've been together for a year, she just graduated. I can't even. I can't go to the wedding. I will say no. I will be that person who is like, nope. I object you guys can't do it. No one in this room wants it. Not even you, maybe him because he wants someone to control and destroy and ruin and play with for the rest of his life for only his happiness with no regards of your own. I can't... FUCK ME!!! Now, she is not the only one of my friends getting married. I just heard about this one, and now I am so angry and pissed and unhappy. Like pure fuckery shit. I had a major anger meltdown.. I pulled a Jesse Cox, except I don't have his awesome raspy angry voice. I'm angry. I can't handle the unhappiness. Dodger is the only thing keeping me not destroying the world right now. I've been so pissed about this all day. Any mention of relationships brought me to this. Anger right now. Like, and tumblr is all lesbian relationships, so I was pissed. Ugh... Rant... Anyways. So, my other friend "c" is getting married. Now... This bitch has not even TOLD ME! I came out to her. And she didn't say shit. She has apparently also become fucking religious, which is okay, and I'm glad she accepted me and all. BUT SHE IS GETTING MARRIED WITH A GUY SHE'S ONLY GONE OUT WITH FOR A FEW MONTHS. SHE IS GETTING MARRIED WITH HIM BECAUSE THEY BONDED OVER GOD AFTER SHE BROKE UP WITH HER EX WHO WAS HER FIRST BOYFRIEND IN A LONG TIME. I CAN'T EVEN HANDLE THIS. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK I WANT TO BE HAPPY FOR HER BUT CIRCUMSTANCES ARE TOO FUCKED FOR THIS!!! NO ONE IS HAPPY ABOUT THIS AND SHE IS BECOMING A BIBLE PUSHER AND SHE USED TO BE THE MOST LIBERAL FUCKER I EVER KNEW!!! I DON'T EVEN KNOW! SHE NEEDS TO GO LIVE IN FUCKING CALIFORNIA SHE NEEDS TO GO THE FUCK BACK SO THEY CAN STRAIGHTEN THAT SHIT UP! I'm sorry BUT I'M NOT! I'M SO PISSED!!! I know why people get divorced so much, I mean fuck. Of all the people I know two of my close friends are getting married with people they shouldn't be with. This has been long and annoying but if you've lasted this long there's one more thing I want you to know. You, no matter who you are, are worth it. You are beautiful, you are wonderful, and you deserve the best in the world. I don't care how much you weigh, that's only a number, I don't care if you are bitchy, that just makes you more interesting. I don't care if you have issues, that just means you will and are stronger. You don't need to be with someone to validate your worth. You are great, no matter what you think you are. Being single doesn't mean you are a loser. Being with someone who doesn't love and appreciate you or you don't like makes you a loser. Don't marry someone you don't truly love and doesn't treat you correctly just because you think no one will ever love you. That's just stupid and will end up in your inevitable misery.