Passionless Music

I really should be getting ready for work, but instead I'm reading a fanific on and off while obssessing over music. Not in the way where you gush over a band or a song, but rather the sound. I'm sure yo've experienced this feeling before. When you're listening to a song through your headphones or eaar buds and you just want more. You feel the passion of the song just sitting there bellow the surface just screaming to come out, but instead the music sound almost monotone compared to what you could hear. The potenetial is just sitting there and you want to scream because you want to experience it so much it hurts. Like, when you listen to Rolling in the Deep or Someone Like You by Adele you feel the passion. Whether you like her music or style or not, you can feel it. It soaks you in her despair and anger and love and sadness and strength. You feel it, you aren't left wanting more. You're satisfied with the emotion and listening to something more calm jusst seems mundane. It's like experiecning "Oh Danny Boy" also known as "Irish Tune from a County Derry" The song itself is beauty reincarnated into music. But when you listen to a band (yeas band not orchestra, because it was made for the specific band sound) play it right. When everyone just clicks it is like the Gods were delievering the music straight to you. You are ruined for anything less after that. Feeling that chemistry and that song and the passion it almost hurts. I want that from music. Breathe Me by Sia, you feel her pain. She laid herself out there to the world and it paid off. That song is a major trigger for a lot of people because of that. Because they relate to the pain conveyed through her. It's not the words it's how she says them how she arranges her diction. What she does with her voice. Just like in Jupiter by Gustav Holst, you feel the Joy in that song. The playful banter between instrument groups, where they intertwine and cause chaos. It's like you can't decide whether to sit there and enjoy the music or get up and let it rip through your body. You know, that's why I want to be a band director. I want to be responsible for sharing great music with kids and showing them music with great passion written all over it and showin them that they can do it too. They can be apart of the beauty that was written and meant to be shared with the performer and the audience. It kills me when I listen to a song and the background music or the background is just there so the singer or the star isn't alone, it's an after thought rather tahn enhancing the experience. It so frustrating. I'm just like TURN UP THE DAMNM PERCUSSION SECTION! GIVE ME AN AGOGIC ACCCENT EVERY NOW AND THEN! It's painful that they coul dhave done so much, but they didn't. I din't know who "they" are but they need to step up their game. I've listened to bands that were not that great talent wise, but they gave their passion. When you hav ethe talent but just refuse to allow the passion to show that's when you are worse than the talentless. So frustrating. I want to feel something when I listen to music. I want to be moved. Stupid industry.