How bad is it to smoke in a graveyard on top of a native american hill memorial site? I am going to need to find a new place to smoke. I might just have to resort to taking walks in the middle of the night to smoke. I am going to be living where 2/3 of my class and friends are going to be living and the place is not secluded and I am not going to have a smoking area. Before I used to smoke behind my dorm which no one I was really friends with ever used that door because you only need it to visit one specific dorm because the other dorm is easier to reach through the front of the complex. So whenever I got the urge to smoke(which is always at night, because it's safer and I won't get caught by anyone I know, and it just feels better because that is when I am truly stressed to the point where I need to relax) I used to just walk out and go smoke, plus my roommate was basically a chain smoker, so no big deal. I could go out with her whenever, no judgement. I can't smoke anywhere around my new dorm. Well, it's not that I physically can't. It's just that people are reeeally touchy about people who smoke. And they are very BLAH BLAH BLAH LUNG CANCER BLAH BLAH IT SMELLS BLAH BLAH THE HEALTH SHIT BLAH BLAH, it gets annoying, and if anyone in the music department found out, well so help me god. If being told by strangers about the risk factors to my health isn't annoying enough, listening to people tell me how it'll affect my lungs and therefore my musicianship. It's not great and I'd rather avoid that shit. But if I can't fucking cut or have sex or play the flute/piano without wanting to shoot myself in the face, I need to smoke. I'd rather have a drink and ruin my liver but that's frowned upon when it includes minors. Bullshit really. I wish I could smoke now. I could really use it. I don't care that it'll just make me feel hotter in my fucking air conditionless house, I could use it to relax. You know, every time I fucking finish a meal when I actually eat with my parents, both my parents are like "Is that all?" or "You barely ate anything." It made me angry the first time and second time and I would let it slide because my dad is an asshole. But I'M NOT GOING TO EAT ANYMORE YOU ASSHOLES!!! It pisses me off so much. I'm starting to ake my anger more vocalized, rather than just clenching my fists or digging my heel into the ground or just fucking flicking them off once they can't see me. They are idiots and I can't fucking tell them why it especially bothers me because if I do they won't fucking understand what I'm saying in any fucking language. Because they are one dimensional and I've never had a conversation with them that wasn't just purely vain. It's all surface talk. They don't know how to caryy on a real conversation without just making it purposely about themselves. I'm pissed off do to other reason they just happened to make me go somewhere after the events, it's immediately, "Stop looking like that, act fucking happy and like you hate us. We are your parents and we don't need that from you because you didn't want to go any where, you need to get out of the house and blah blah blah." Like I can't have fucking issues that don't include the, fucking narcisistic assholes. It pisses me off beyond belief. They really need to be taught a lesson on talking to their fucking offspring. But if they weren't such fucking criers I would have fucking done it years ago. But no. They got lucky with a daughter who has many more issues than just their self involved shit and has no one to speak to. FUCK I need a fucking cigarette or drink. This is ridiculous. If my parliments weren't fucking $8 I'd be all over smoking right now. The next 4 years of my life are going to fucking suck. My parents are just going to get more and more obnoxious and poor,they will probably lose the house and need to move out with all the shit we have and if that's not the case we are just going to live in a fucking broken home where every fucking appliance goes to shit, we're off to a great star with the fucking freezer part of the fridge stops freezing and needs to be defrosted every fucking week and the washer has gone to shit leaking water all over the fucking place and of course the most recent player to add the the roster, the air conditioner that has been nothing but shit for years but has finally broken. Probably for good at this rate. Not to mention my electronic luck. I just can't sometimes. It's so much shit that I make sure to spend no time near my parents because they reek defeat and self pity. Next 4 years of my life are going to be shit. And no support to be found any where. So forgive me for wanting to fucking smoke every once in a while you judgmental prick.