OTP frustration.

So, Pretty Little Liars. I'm frustrated. I just want to know who A is and be done with it. Like, they are not following the books at all, it is literally an alternate reality from the books. I just hope they keep the whole Emily getting pregnant thing out, because at this rate it'll probably be with Nate and that guy is just a creepy and not a good guy. He is an asshole with a God complex. He needs to go back where he came from. And Paige, wtf is up with that bitch. She is not going to be A, there will probably be a plot twist dealing with her, like she is obsessing over Emily that she wants to have her all for herself and seperate her from her friends and the world, but she isn't behind the A business. Spencer is plain pissing me off, her pretty face can only keep me off her case for so long. I mean, this whole, "the entire world is A, and we won't know for sure until we fuck up someone's life" That's getting plain old and annoying. And what happened to Lucas, that guy was shady and he just dropped off the face of the earth after Ezra was like... so... what's up? Toby has also fucked off along with Melissa, what is that shit. All while Aria is with her boyfriend and getting into business that isn't hers to be in. Spencer was trapped with a snake and Aria is off baking a cake, literally. Also, Ezra's brother and Aria, there is something that is going to happen there. I mean, why else was he introduced into the story line. Thta's not random shit. Also, Ceecee? What the fuck is up with that chick? I'm suspicious. But she would never be caught in black gloves and a shady hotel. I mean, come on, the girl couldn't live without those accessories. I've read the synopsis of the books and apparently Allison has a twin sister, as I made a wild guess at in the beginning of the season. I don't know what that's about, but we'll see. Since Emily did go bat shit crazy and see Ally last season and so did someone else, but god knows if I remember. I'm not too sure how they're going to get that one going. What about Jenna? Why are we so trusting of that bitch now? Warning Emily. She's not talking about Paige, because Paige is just a jealous chick who doesn't want people messing with her girl, like sleazy boys who think they can take the law into their own hands. Why anyone tells this guy anything is beyond me. I mean, the guys has alomst literally repeated the same thing he was told out loud in an angry manner everytime, or at least reacted to. I mean, seriously. What the fuck. Did you know, Aria was supposed to date Noel Kahn? Maybe he wasn't a sleazy dick in the books? I don't know, but that's creepy. I don't know. PPL is starting to piss me off, it needs to go somehwere and fast. In unrelated news, I am officially a complete and total Naomi and Emily fan. Like, no word can ever convince me that those two fictional characters we not meant for each other. Like, I unintentionally have so many of their encounters in the show memorized. Also, I have lines of theirs running through my mind, no matter how shitty they may be, they were just awesome in th series and I am a serious fangirl right now, so just ignore me. They way people write their love is just so fascinating and amazing. I mean, I am a huge fan of Cameron and Thirteen off of House, even if in the finale Cameron has a husband and child. They will forever be in my heart but Naomily is my OTP. I mean, come on. Naomi, like a fool, has been in love with Emily since she was 12 and then they kissed when they were 14 and then shit went down and they were brought together again at 16 in college. Now, even though Naomi became a sarcastic bitch who tried to keep everyone around her within a 10 meter radius from her and she become quite close with her politics closer due to the nature of his knowledge and that went balls up, Emily still got through every defense she had. And, Naomi let her. No matter how hard she fought it, she couldn't bring herself to do it all the way. Even when she was younger she let herself believe it was the drugs so she couldn't blame Emily for her woes because she could never hate Emily, and even thought Katie was a right bitch, Naomi could never hate Emily's sister and betray her like that. Even if she was a right cow. Emily stayed with Naomi through all the shit because she knew who Naomi really was, she knew what a good person she was. Naomi let her take her time in being herself. She didn't want to fuck up Emily's life so she took all the blame while half heartedly telling wankers that it wasn't her. So much so that Naomi fucked other guys as to not fuck with Emily's life, even if it was more for herself, part of it was protecting Emily. When Naomi finally let her guard clink a bit off she let herself feel what it would be like if they were truly together. No judgement from society or her mind. Seh let herself go into nature with Emily to see what it was like. Because waking up with Emily laying next to her a few mornings before just felt right and she needed to know. She needed to let herself know so she could finally get past it. Except she couldn't. What she felt at that lake with Emily was way more than physical. Emily got into her mind and was in her every pore, in her every thought, in her vision. She couldn't get out of there fast enough. She was suffocating and she wasn't ready. And she wouldn't be fro ages. I mean, I think I could write an entire term paper over their every interaction and their love. I mean, the ending speech itself would be a good page or two. Because, dear baby jesus that was an amazing speech. "Who wants to go first then?" Cue door opening. See Naomi. "I will." She says in a feeble voice, scared, terrified, it's her last chance. She faces Emily and looks at her red headed fireball looking at her with such anger and sadness while her sister stands a bit behind her but looking slightly relieved. "I've loved you since the first time I saw you, I think I was twelve" You can barely hear her speak, her voice is so constricted by the emotions she is experiecing. The past 5-6 years of emotion hitting her all at once, but some how giving her the will to keep going. "It took me three years to pluck up the courage to speak to you." She almost felt like sighing after letting that out, but she knew if she didn't anything but speak at that moment it would probably come out as a sob. "And I was so afraid of what I felt, you know, loving a girl-" She sounded like she was about to cry, but she had to keep going, she had to let Emily know. "-so, I learned how to become a sarcastic bitch to kind of feel normal." The tears were beginning to form in her eyes, the thought of not ever being abe to hold Emily starting to take a toll on her soul, how she spent all those years trying to fight the unstoppable force that was Emily Fitch. "I screwed guys to make it go away, but it didn't work." Because no one could ever beat you, no one ever will. "When we got together it scared the shit out of me, because you were the one person who could ruin my life." She couldn't hold in the tears that were threatening to fall from her eyes. The raw emotion she was experiencing was too much to handle but she would fight worse to try and get Emily back. "I pushed you away. I made you think things were your fault."But I'm just an asshole my love, you could never do anything wrong only I have. "But really I was just terrified of pain." If only I had known then... "I screwed that girl, Sophia, to kind of spite you for having that hold on me, and I'm a total fucking coward because I got these-" My hands were shaking so badly I could barely grab a hold of these stupid precious ticket. "-these tickets to Goa for us three months ago," I have to look at her she needs to know that it's true, she needs to see. "But I, I couldn't stand..." The sobs were wracking through my body at that point and nothing could stop them, not even God, my guilt was just washing over me once and twice over again. "I didn't want to be a slave to the way I feel about you, can you understand?" I don't care who is the room at this point it is just me and Emily, it will always just be me and Emily. "You were trying to punish me back and it's horrible. It's so horrible, because... I'd die for you." Every time. "I love you. I love you so much, and it's killing me." Please do something because I don't think I will survive any longer without knowing. And then, she kissed me. I could feel her shaking under me, I could taste the tears spilling from her eyes, but I could only barely contain my happiness as she conveyed every once of love she contained into that kiss. That kiss was a promise that things would be okay, that we were okay. That we were Naomi and Emily and nothing could and will never keep us apart. We spent the rest of the night living as free souls with our friends in Freddie's shack. Cook fucked off a little while before, probably off thinking or scoring some more grass. I couldn't be bothered really, as much as I loved the fucker, tonight was only about me and Emily. We laughed and drank and smiled the night through. Nothing could ruin this moment. Not even Katie's half disgusted, half delighted glances. As unsettling as it was.