So, I realized what one of the changes I made is. I have become more responsible. I'm more of an adult. I don't react emotionally anymore. I mean, if I'm on my period I will probably cry and get angry and stuffs. It is very weird. I feel older and more responsible. I'm way more confident in myself. I hold myself better and I react in a more professional way. it's really weird So, I sent in a loan application and I'm waiting for it to get approved. Crossing my fingers, if not I'm fucked, I'll have to pay 697 straight up. And when I get paid on Thursday, my last day at work, I'm only going to have maybe a max of 500. That's being generous with my paycheck. I don't think I can get anyone to give me 200 dollars. And even if I do I'll be fucked for school books and shit and I will still have to find a cosigner to pay the rest of it off because there is no way in hell that I can get another 700 dollars for the next payment. I'm really worried actually. I'm a bit fucked if shit goes tits up, or if it doesn't go through in time. I'm really just crossing my fingers.