So today, I didn't feel bad, or uncomfortable really. I was just so conscience of these very prominent scars of my left arm. Let me explain about 2 or so months ago, I was in a bad place and I cute several times around the same area on my left arm. Now, it doesn't help that they are lengthy and on my upper forearm. So, when I turn my arm palm up, it's beyond visible.
Now, today I gave blood. My cuts have long been healed, but my skin is super dark tanned, so any cut on my skin goes to my original color of very light. So it is super prominent. Even though they weren't that bad, so anyways.
I was doing the survey thing, and the lady asked me to show her my arms. And I was like, great. I just feel people will preconceive me, and that's bothersome. So I went around without a jacket and I freely used mars, but whenever a doctor had to check my arms, I felt weird. Like, so what do you think about me now? The world is fucked up, I know.
It was severely weird. Especially since I was such a closed off person, I never tell anyone anything. So yeah. It was odd.
I had region, it sucks, it'll suck. tomorrow from me waking up at 5 a.m. to shower then getting to school at 7:15 starting the clinic at 8 and then the concert at 5 p.m. the same day. On not 3 not 4. SIX pieces of long music, it'll be gay.
My life is boring giving whole blood platelets is a trip XD
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