Some day in January I think

New Year new me bitches! lol

So I have recently found Tumblr (the good stuff) and it's epic. I fucking love it, such a bitchin' atmosphere. And I found it like the week before my online english class ended, so basically when I was so fucking screwed I could cut the tension in my body with a fucking knife! Stress fucking galore aye? So I found the popular lesbian society. And I fucking swear everyone fucking love kittens they are you so FUCKING ADORABLE! I would reblog on here, but I'm getting my documents and pictures in sorts.

Anyways, I'm so fucking stress free, I'm tired as shit and a whole bounty of feelings, but fuck, I mean what the fuck am I supposed to do aye? I'm just livin life how I want so everyone who has an issue that can fuck off. My speech is a bit odd, I just started watching Skins and they voice in my head is speaking in british that non posh shit. So my minds in all kinds of sorts right now.

So my motto for the rest of my life? Why not? It's like a philosophy class! Hahaha.

My life at the moment, I told my best friend there that I just to be infatuated with him for a good chunk of the time I knew him, that was fun, I'm sure that boosted his ego to about a million. ANYWAYS, I'm still loving that chick I've liked for ages now, it's honestly ridiculous I honestly hate it, I say move on, but my minds all acting stupid and shit. I'm texting an old friend/ex of mine, and I've suspected foul play from the beginning but he's a friend so what ev, but I got an odd text and I can't make heads or tails of it.

He asked what I did during my off period I told him, trying to suggest I am a bit busy and shit, but he replied with exact quote and shit "Wanna hang with me for thirty minutes tomorrow? Fool around or something" So, I'm like... hm... he has made no sexual advances towards me in the past 3 years, oh wait that's a fucking lie. Point is I've never done shit with him, I was a fucking tease the entire time we were together, ah back in my I'm an idiot days. So I can take it as, hey he wants to do some sexual shit like he always used to back in the day OR he could mean hang out and shit. I would usually know what shit was going down, BUT I have been influenced by people who aren't my shit fucked friends, but more by some laid back bitches on Tumblr or Skins or Youtube, stuff from people just trying to live life all natural and shit with the fucking flow. So my perception is shit.

Now, I don't want to do shit with him. It's not my game, plus I know his girlfriend, oh yes boys and girls you heard right GIRLFRIEND, I have her 1st, so it's like... I wonder if she knows I'm talking to her gf.

BTW, this guy is one of the main reason I decided to say fuck to my regular exercise and taking nice care of myself, because I didn't want dirt bags like him around me. Oh yes, I had a full on break down after 9th grade, ah mental instability some crazy shit goes down.

Anyways, I'm assuming he wants to hang out nothing sexual at all. But can't help but be nervous ya know? I mean, THAT would be awkward. Anyways.

Oh, and I just started my period, which is shit, but explains why I felt super exta fat today. I was like, I don't usually look like this wtf? And sure enough I bloated like a walrus. I hate water weight, tomorrow is going to be some major exercise to get rid of it, plus I need to get back to my super old routine, which will be way fucking easier when I'm in college and a straight up veggie chick.

So my life as been meaningless, I can't really hang with friends because I have my stupid bus to catch. I would skip class, but honestly I only have 4 ish. I have calculus, gov/eco, choir and theory (same teacher), and band. So I mean, I would never fucking miss my first 2, it'd be pointless to skip choir because I have theory which I wouldn't miss, and band, I hang out in the band hall all day, there is no point in my skipping it, and my off periods no one has off with me, that I would care much for.

I'm confused as shit, I'm a bit moody, I'm bloated as fuck and I want to do some fun shit. Fuck, ANYWAYS. Let's see what the year brings. Cause I'm going to fuck up some shit with some friends. And not my lame ass friends.

I do apologize for like the five fucking million 'fucks' I used in this post, it's my rebellious side coming out. Oh yes ;)

I'll update you tomorrow to see what the fuck that guy was talking about

Peace out homies XD