sometimes

Whenever I think about coming out to my friends, my first emotion is fear of not so much their reaction but what they’ll think and I have no idea why. My initial thoughts are, how seriously are they going to take me? I’m bisexual and I know many negative thoughts pop into people minds when they hear that word. Then my mind goes to, I wish I were just a lesbian with no extra feelings towards boys.
In the end I still kind of wish I were a lesbian, but in the end, I don’t care. I feel what I feel and despite having a rough time in the lesbian community I don’t care. If you have a problem with it seriously just fuck you
I still haven’t told a lot of my friends, one because they don’t need to know really, it won’t effect their lives at all, but I still want to gauge our friendship for a bit longer before I say anything, for future reference. We have a mutual friend who is a lesbian, I know she knows. I mean I don’t really hide the fact I like girls, I’m just selective with my words.
Ugh, I kind of wish my gaydar existed. My lesbian friend broke it.
Moral of the story, thank you slutty cheater polygamist bisexuals who flaunt their relationship statuses for giving every other bisexual in the world a bad name. And thank you straight girls who pretend to be bisexual for screwing real bisexuals over and pissing off lesbians.
This makes my life that much more difficult but I’m willing to take the challenge because I just happen to love both men and women and my heart will go with who ever it decides to love.