In the spirit of love

AND today will be a very annoying, maybe all gushy, disgustingly amorous, and super gay post! Yay!!!

So okay. I always fear this one question, not "Are you gay?" or "What is the answer to this optimization problem (in Calculus)", but "Who was your first kiss?" or "What was your first kiss like?" With either sex. On the guy side it was pretty shitty.

On the girl side of things... I've never ACTUALLY kissed a girl. But now before you go all HOW THE HELL DO YOU KNOW YOU LIKE GIRLS, bitch how did you know you liked guys before you kissed one, oh yes, I went there. I okay...

I fucked EVERYTHING up with my guy firsts. The first kiss, my first sexual experience, my first having sex, my first everything with guys (minus the crushes) was fucked.

With a girl, I want to do everything right. I want the first kiss to be special, I want to actually have a very amazing emotional connection with a girl. Everything after my firsts can go however, but I really don't want to fuck those up. As long as I buy into the moment I don't care if it may hurt to remember but at least they will have been sweet and "amazing".

With a girl I would totally do everything so fucking sweetly it would be excruciatingly hard to stand the sweetness you might just get diabetes, I kid I kid.

But I really would be so sweet and caring, I would do small little gestures showing that I loved them. I would hold their hands whenever, I would listen to every word she said. I would give her small little gifts showing that I cared every once in awhile, not just valentine's day. I would sneak a kiss in every once in a while to keep things exciting. I would stare into her eyes and tell her I loved her (or really liked her, depending on the stage of our relationship) I would hug her all the time. from behind, unexpectedly, glomping style, romantically, and whenever. I would cuddle with her non-stop, I would say sweet little nothings in her ears. I would kiss her slowly and passionately instead of just with vigor and lust (there is a time and place for that... IN BED, lol) I would tease her to the max I would flirt with her as if we were still trying to find each other.

I would also joke around with her all the time, I would be myself of course, I would jokingly tell her to shut-up when she's not talking, I would create awkward silences between us two, and I would chat her up. I would chase her around and tickle her mercilessly. I would sing to her and hold her.

I would totally never say the phrase 'I would'. We would go out and enjoy each other's company. We will fight about the stupidest things and make up later that day (or the next morning if we fell asleep). I would insult her like I do my best friend and she would insult me back, because we know we are kidding.

I would give her a rose at a random time and place all the time. She would force me to dance with her and I would stubbornly say no, but her persistence would wear me down and I would go out and make a fool of myself with her. I will dance every slow song with her.

Most importantly I would be proud having her be my girlfriend and everyone else could just fuck off.