I spent all after school at my old Chem teachers room grading this annoying paper, I graded harsh though XDDD I'm glad Robo (my teacher) allows me have my way with their grades. It was something extremely easy, and it was separated into 3 parts, and they should have gotten the entire problem right, so if they got something wrong, I counted the whole thing wrong so basically, if they missed one, they got a 70, if they missed two, a 40, and 3 a zero or 10, it doesn't really make much of a difference at that point. But yeah, I got hours, two capri suns, cheetos, and an air head out of it, so it was good. I'm still tired though. I haven;t done anything this week, mostly because emotionally I've been DRAINED and that just causes me to feel it physically, now I remember why I hated emotions, see I'm not crazy!
Today I have been relatively happy, it weird actually, I didn't feel that usual pain when I look at Thorium. It;s the first day that's ever happen, but then again I haven't looked him in the face, I'm pretty sure I'm not ready for that, but I am improving, hopefully it isn't a one day thing. But... OH! I found shiny! I fixed my jacked up chair and I'm finally working on my desk again, and I found shiny in the process!!! I was so happy and shocked, I honestly couldn't believe it! It sincerely made my day! Not even the insensitivity of my friends brought me down! I really hope it's not a one day thing, because happiness is one of those things you never ever have all the time.
So I'm trying out for flute section leader, but the process is starting now. It's so lame but I don't. I think i'm ready for it, I hope I make it, I'm not sure if I will or not. Of course I'll act extremely confident, but I'm not sure at all XD I can only think of the bad.
I swear!!! I really am an optimist at heart!!! I am just very negative and realistic! As I was telling my cousin the other day, I don't believe in faith. I had faith when I was younger, and that ended up being total bull shit. So I don't believe it, I encourage others to have it if they believe in it. I may be an atheist and really determined about what I believe in, but I never bash others beliefs unless they ask me something about it, or they really are just idiots and judge others religions, and even then it's not really bashing, but informing. I really try hard to not actually express my true feeling about it, and I've pretty much succeeded 80% of the time, and the other 20% is pretty much a watered down version of what I actually think.
No lie! If I pass English this semester I'll be beyond happy. I now have a 38 in the class. I'm really nervous, yet I'm not doing anything to fix it, I really should, but I didn't do it because I didn't want to, so yeah. Idk, I'll basically need a 100 next six weeks to get a decent semester average.
Um... I still haven't continued on my story. Idk when I'll actually work on it, I'm pretty exhausted at the moment, I'll try drinking ice cold water, but some how, I doubt that'll work. I'll try today. I'm doing Environmental science this saturday and sunday. I think I'll finish it. I better finish it, I need the next week for Junior Theme Project, even though we have a week extra, I don't want to chance anything.
I am yawning beyond belief right now, so I'll leave this post as is, considering the day is basically over and nothing interesting will happen.
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