Stupid

So I consider today, a success!!! There were like 10 people who asked me why I wasn't talking (I spoke through my vibrant actions) and I told them (by writing it down) why. And almost all of them were like, wow! I want to do that! So next year, I have a feelining it'll be bigger and better :D

I did cheat here and there, but only with people whom I never EVER get to talk to (I had a feeling they would all talk to me today) It was fun though. MY MEDICAL TERMINOLPGY TEACHER WASN'T HERE TODAY!!! I almost cried! Me and Br hugged for a good minute in happiness! We were going to have a test in there too. I was sooo happy.

Lunch was okay, boring since we couldn't talk (Technetium and Yt did it too) and only Br talked, that annoyed Technetium, though, I'm not really sure why. But it was the good pizza! It was a good day!

And then band came! And it was great, we played Vesuvius by Frank Tichelli (I've loved that song since 10th grade, or 9th, whenever we tried to play it). I was happy. And my friends are going to the band trip so yay! No longer me and Lithium only! But, then Martinez decided she wanted to talk with us. And I was like crap. She brought the big chair to the podium and moved the stand out of her way, and she said it wasn't going to be that big of a deal (which we all know, means it's going to be a big deal) And she told us, she had always wanted to start a family, and that she loved us, and that she wanted to tell us first because we were like her babies and she wanted us to hear it directly from her and not by word of mouth. And she told us she's not going to be here next year because she wants to start a family and doesn't want to leave in the middle of next year because that's always tough on bands. I'm not going to lie, I teared up and a few tears fell later in class. Then I calmed down. But just the thought of it you know? She's been my band director since freshman year. I still remember when I was a fish and she would come in front of me and yell left right and tell me the step outs when I couldn't get them down. I remember not liking her, but she's taught me a lot that I know now she's helped me grow as a person and musician. Goforth is inspiring and all, but I've had Martinez as my teacher in band class since 9th grade and I really can't believe she's leaving. It's like that one friend that you care for a lot and really means a lot to you and they move schools. It's that same feeling of loss. She honestly can't be replaced. And I'm going to hate her replacement. It's crazy. I totally cried on the bus just thinking about it. We used to talk about her leaving those days we were tired and frustrated, but ugh! If I weren't being moved up to wind ensemble next year I would be horrible to the new guy. I'm glad shes going to get something she's wanted for a long time, but she couldn't have waited until we graduated! I mean! The year is almost over. Only a few more months with her. Why did she wait until after UIL to tell us! We would have worked so much harder if we had known. She just can't leave, she can't. Who the hell is going to yell at us during fundamentals or tell us we aren't ready. I'm sorry I don't care how good the new guy is, I want Martinez. Ugh stupid lady.

I don't even know why I'm this upset. I don't know why she means so much to me, it just does.

Ugh. So that's my day. I have to finish my environmental science course now, and if I finish early enough I'm going to kill people on GTA San Andreas and relieve my stress and anger.